How to Heal a Broken Heart (Explicit Content)

First Time ( Wynter)

" Ma ma, juice, juice!" Hope tapped me on my knee holding her empty cup.
My baby is to smart already and such a hand-full. She is full of attitude and does the funniest things sometimes. I'm so blessed to have her in my life and I'm so glad I've made the right decision on keeping my baby. It's been a year since Hope was born and thank the man above, she didn't have HIV. Since my viral load was so low, I didn't pass the infection on to her.
Hope has given me so much life, so much to live for and so has Jahmil. Speaking of Jahmil, let me tell you about him. I'm madly, over the hills in love with the guy but I still haven't completely given myself to him. He still didn't know I have HIV and we still haven't had sex. Every time we even get close to doing anything, I'll push him away. I'll tell him I'm not ready because of Aiden raping me. Jahmil always respected my wishes but the real reason I haven't had sex with him is because of this virus. You would think it would be easy just to come out and say it but it's not. I've came close to telling him several times but I always freeze up and change the subject. It's crazy though, Jahmil has stuck with me through it all, Hope even calls him dada. It's only fair to Jahmil if I just go ahead and tell him the truth.

" Here you go sweet girl." I handed Hope her cup and turned on the tv.
I sat Hope on the couch next to me as I propped my feet up on the ottoman. I flipped through the channels on the t.v.

" It's never anything on tv now and days, just reality shows, ugh. I'm a freaking reality show myself."
I mumbled out-loud  as my phone rung. I looked at my phone and it was my bae Jahmil calling. I answered the phone quick.

" Hey baby!" I greeted him happily.

" Hey you! What you and Hope up to?"

" Nothing at all. I'm bored out my mind. What are you up to?" I asked hoping he wanted to see me.

" Same, bored as hell. Anyway, I have the day off and I wanted to invite you to my dad's welcome home party tonight. That's if you're not busy. I have something I want to ask you also."

" I would love to go, you know that and why can't you just ask me now?"

" Because Wynter, you just gonna have to wait til later." 
I could tell he was cheesing hard from the sound of his voice, he knows I'm such an impatient person.

" Okkkkk, I'll wait." I told him sadly but I was curious to know what he wanted to ask me.

" So later be ready at 7:00 and wear something nice."

" Ok, will do and do I need to find a babysitter for Hope?"

" No, of course not, Hope can come too. It's a kids friendly party, I wouldn't dare leave daddy's babygirl out like that. Hope wanna party too." Jahmil chuckled.

I couldn't help but to grin from ear to ear when he said that. Jahmil always included Hope in everything that we do together. I couldn't thank Elleah enough for hooking us up and for that reason alone I had to be honest with him.

" Ok, we'll be ready at 7. I can't wait to see you anyway. Especially all dressed up in your suit."

" Wynter, you know I can't wait to see you either. I already know you're going to look remarkable."
The sexiness in his voice always arouse me, I was growing weak for him.
I blew kisses at the phone as we hung it up.

Three Hours Later........

I was at this amazing venue with the perfect gentleman and my beautiful daughter Hope. I was kind of nervous to meet Jahmil's dad and the rest of his family. It's been so long since I had to meet someone parents.