(1) When We Collide (T. Stark)

Chapter Thirty

Sam enters a room at Bobby's, Spencer's room, it hasn't been changed since she left, except for one wall, all the post cards, letters and photos from her trip have been tapped, tacked and pinned, scattered across. Beyond the Madrid letter and postcard are photos and cards from Rome, Venice, Monte Carlo, Amsterdam and Dubai. 4 cities in 2 months. Spencer really is going all out for it. Sam touches the newest photo of Trinity in his hand. Along with a postcard from Cape Town.

"We got another one?" Dean asks behind him, Sam hums his answer holding up the post card. Dean takes it and smiles a little.

"I miss her" Sam admits. "Feels weird you know....her not being here"

"Yeah" Dean agrees and shrugs pinning the post card to the wall. "She's happy and doing her thing so..." Dean shrugs touching the post card. "I miss her too" he admits.

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Spencer leans on a balcony railing looking out over Hong Kong, Singapore behind them, and Chiang Mai behind that. Asia is beautiful. Stunning. She turns and looks back into the hotel room. 8 month old Trinity sits on the bed watching a Chinese children's show, bright lights and colours that keep her occupied whilst Tony chuckles behind her braiding her hair, Spencer smiles watching them. Tony is gonna be just fine as a dad, that she knows, he's so worried but he doesn't need to be. She touches her wedding ring and looks down a little getting upset, it's getting worse, the closer she gets, the more upset she gets over the little things. Tony glances to her and then kisses Trinity's head before standing.

"Spence?" he asks, she shakes her head and looks to him.

"I'm just being silly" she tells him wrapping her arms around him, he kisses her head and hugs her back.

"There is no such thing as silly this year" he whispers to her, she sets her head on his chest and breaths him in closing her eyes. "Talk to me" he whispers stroking her hair. She pulls back and looks to him.

"I don't want to die" she admits sniffling. "I don't...but I have to" he clasps her face and smiles sadly. "And I feel so...powerless" she states. "I know this is my fault, I did it and I can't take it back but I..." he kisses her stopping her, she clutches at the back of his shirt and kisses him back.

"All you had to do was ask" he comments. "You know that me, Dean and Sam...Pepper too, we'll search under every freakin' rock to find a way to get you out of this" she sniffles.

"If I go back on the deal, Sam dies" she reminds him.

"So we just find another way to bring him back..." Tony offers. "There has to be more then one way to bring someone back from the dead"

"Tony" she whispers touching his chest. "I love you" she assures him. "But.....you don't think I haven't been looking?" she sighs a little. "For something, for some other way.....I lay awake at night and I just..." she looks away from him. Tony nuzzles into her neck, hiding his own upset. "I wish there was another way" she tells him stroking his hair. "But I don't think there is" she presses her head to the side of his. "We still have time" she assures him. "We still have 7 months and a whole lot of world left to see" he kisses her cheek and then pulls her towards the bed, Trinity claps her hands together for them both and Tony smiles.

"You, me and Trinny" Tony offers. "Let's go to Zoo" he looks to his daughter who smiles up at him.

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Tony pushes Trinity in her stroller, there are two bright balloons attached to the handle and Trinity has a stuffed panda in her seat with her, Spencer walks at Tony's side, her arm laced with his. Tony glances to her and smiles warmly. Honestly he never, ever thought he'd be brave enough to do this. To have his own family. A wife. A kid.

"Tell me something" he starts, Spencer looks to him. "Let's think for a moment, no demon deal.....what do you see for our future?"

"What do you mean?" she asks.

"If there was no demon deal. What would you see for us?" she shrugs.

"I don't know, Tony" she answers. "I don't think we would have gotten married as soon as we did" she admits.

"You don't?" she shakes her head.

"I think you asked me to marry you because we didn't have time.....It would have happened, eventually, sure, but..." he kisses her head. "Two years, five...." she offers and shrugs a little.

"See more kids?" he asks, she looks to him.

"Do you?" she asks back. He looks to Trinity and smiles.

"Yeah" he answers. "I grew up an only child and it was lonely...I don't want that for her"

"Maybe you can give her a brother or sister once I'm gone" she whispers, he looks to her.

"I don't want another child unless it's with you" he argues, she gives him a sad look.

"Tony" she ghosts slightly.

"I know" he argues pulling her closer as Trinity watches the birds of paradise. "We don't have a future...but man can dream" he mumbles and kisses her head. Spencer is racked with a wave of guilt and pain knowing how many lives she's destroyed with that stupid deal.

"I'm gonna get a soda" she whispers pulling away from Tony before walking away. Tony glances to her as she does. His heart breaking a little more each day the deadline closes in.