Our Chemical Direction

Chapter 5: The Pain She Couldnt Escape

{Thorn's POV}

Louis whispered something about my outfit, but he was soon pulled away. "Hands off of my daughter." Gerard defended. I giggled before hugging him. "Thorn, have you ever met a girl named Isabel?" Mikey asked. I nodded no and gave him a questioning look. "She said that she needed to meet with you. Something about your boyfriend not being who he says he is." he shrugged. I thanked him and grabbed the paper with an address written. 

It was in a town not far from here. "Thorn, wait. Don't go." Louis begged. "What the hell is your problem?"

"Isabel doesnt like me and shes going to lie to you to get you to stay away from me." he whispered. I rolled my eyes and closed the car door. He stood, lost, like a small child. He must be hiding something. 

I knocked at Isabel's door. "Hello, are you Isabel?" I asked. A girl nodded and offered for me to come in. "Look, you might not believe me, but Louis is a liar. He convinced me to sleep with him, and then he left in the morning. 9 months later I had my baby girl Emma." she claimed. "C-Could I see her?" I whispered. She nodded and lead me to a room with a crib. There was a beautiful baby girl asleep. Belle picked her up and woke her. I was shocked when she opened her eyes. They were a bright blue, like Louis..

"She uh, looks like her father." I choked. She frowned and sat Emma back in her crib. "I am so sorry that you had to find out from me. I dont want to see you upset but I thought someone should let you know before you commit yourself." she apologized. I nodded and drove home. 

"Thorn, what did that girl want?" Frank asked in front of the group. "She wanted me to see her daughter. She used to be a friend of Louis'." I sighed. They all nodded. "What did she look like?" they asked in unison. I pulled out a picture and watched Frankie's eyes grow wide. "Her eyes are so pretty. In fact they remind me of L- le ocean. The ocean. You know?" he caught himself. I let out a breath and waited for everyone to leave. 

"Is Emma-?" "Yes." I whispered. I felt tears trying to escape, so I let them. I have nothing to hide from him. "IM GOING TO FUCKING KILL HIM." Gerard barked. Me and Frank jumped up, startled. Gee ran through the house towards Louis room. "You son of a bitch!" he screamed, starting to choke him. Louis tried to get away, but failed. "GERARD ARTHUR WAY." I yelled. His head snapped towards me, eyes filled with anger. "I can handle this. I wont let it happen again, its okay. Hes a piece of shit who needs to get his act together and pay some fucking child support." I spat. 

"What. Are you talking about?" Louis asked underneath Gerards grip. Gee tightened. "Come on, dad. I can handle this. You dont need another homicide on your hands." I sighed, to scare Louis. He gulped and laid still. "Youre right. But if he touches you, he'll be done." he frowned. 

I nodded and watched Gerard leave. 

"Louis, I know about Emma."

"Who's Emma?"

"You dont know your own daughter's name?" I screamed. He gave me a confused look. "I trusted you and you had to let me down. How come whenever I trust someone they dissapoint me? I really thought that you were the one, but apparently you arent." I growled. 

"Look, Im not sure what Isabel told you but it's not true." he argued. "Screw you!" I yelled. I turned around and walked out, slamming the door. 

I walked to my room and locked myself in the bathroom. I grabbed a blade and slashed. All of my pain stayed. It hid in my stomach, balling up. I started crying, scared that nothing I did could help. 

I started to wonder what my purpose was, Why do all these terrible things happen to me? I'm just a regular girl with a fucked up past. Why do I have depression and why do I have so many trust issues? I always get way too attatched and never to the right people. 

I spent my night crying myself to sleep.