your shadow never leaves you

chapter 19: whats the point of trying?

"he will see what he is missing", i chuckled, "oh honey he won't", "and why do you say that?", "no one has ever liked me, there is no 'he'll see what he's missing', so whats the point of trying", she sighed, "im turning off my com's now", "wai-", i turned off my com's and sat in silence, i connected my phone into the com's, i blasted my music, tears filled my eyes, i chocked back a sob, i wiped my tears away, "you knew this would happen why are you crying?!?", i screamed out, i slapped my cheek, i took a deep breath, i exhaled loudly, "goddamn i never knew a guy would have this control over me", i groaned, "see this is why boss told me never to get close to anyone, and fall for people", 'i have to pull myself together', "can you just shut up let me finish a sentence!", i sang along with the song,

as i sang along with the broken voiced singer, my voice cracked in pain as i sang, once we made it back to the blade, i unplugged my phone and ran to my room, i threw my phone onto my bed and suited up for training, i ran out to the training room, i started up a session, i fought until i couldn't move, one came at me, i pulled akuma-ire-shou out and attacked, i stood up and attacked out of sheer will, "end training sequence", the bots went off, i walked out of the room, making my sword disappear, i walked to my room and showered, after my shower i walked to the kitchen, there was food set out for me, i smiled, i grabbed the plate and ate, i washed my dish and walked toward my room,

i sat in my room, my heavy eyes shut, in the morning i was awoke by krolia shaking me, "hmmmm" i mumbled out, i herd her light hearted chuckle, "we have plans today common", i stumbled out of bed, i walked out, i walked to the control room, "nice of you to join us", i nodded, "so what is going on", "were going to earth!!!",i smiled, 'that was a pretty weak smile, let me try again, theyre gonna suspect something is wrong', i thought as i saw their worried expressions, i smiled wider, i ran to krolia and hugged her, 'god i hope none of them notice it', "I CANT WAIT TO GO TO A BAR AGAIN!", i yelled out, "arent you a little young though?", 'right only boss allowed me to do that', "heh, young wild kids right?", i put my hand on the back of my neck, i chuckled, i scratch the nape of my neck, "you wont be allowed to drink", "BUT KROLIA IM ALMOST 21!!!!!", she rolled her eyes, "youre 16!", "YEAH THATS 5 YEARS AWAY!!!",(if youre younger than 21 please if you drink, please drink responsibly, drink with close friends and at your home WITH your parents approval, if you cant meet these requirements please do not drink at all underage!!!--author), "5 years" she huffed at me, i rolled my eyes"fine, BUT, i cant promise anything!!!", she sighed deeply,"close enough",

i smiled brightly, i grabbed all of my weapons and strapped them to me, i didnt bother to take clothes, i had my apartment, with my clothes, 'what if boss took them?', 'i know where they are', 'what if they moved?', 'i will find them easily', i walked out, i strapped my phone and headphones to me, i walked out to our ships, i loaded gray, 'im going home', "voltron is gonna need you at some point if i can feel that theyre in trouble i will take us there", i nodded, 'gray is very strong', we took off, and time for earth, 

time skip since space can be boring if all youre doing is flying through it!:

we landed in a blind spot of the government, "i only knew because we were taught that at the garrison", i sighed, "the garrison", once we hit the ground i ran out of gray, i kissed the grass, tears filled my eyes, "home!", i called out in tears, i cried on the ground, i laughed, i sobbed as i looked at the sun, i looked at the clouds, i breathed in the smell of the trees and dirt i smiled wildly, i stood up and hugged my team, they laughed, "we should hide gray, then we can head to the city", i looked at krolia then gray, i looked at her, i frowned, "its ok my cub i'll be fine, ill use camo, anyway i could use time apart from you", her voice was beautiful, she laughed elegantly, i smiled, "ill find my boss and friends and i will be able to take you home', i gave her one last giant smile before she retreated into a nearby cave, she camouflaged into the darkness, i waved to her, i turned and smiled, even though it did hurt to leave her, tears of pain stung my eyes, ankto put his arm around my shoulder, "hey its ok you will see her again", i looked at the tall galran man, i smiled,