Bromantic (Craig Tucker x Reader)

Let's Talk

I sighed as I slightly brushed the tickle out of the tip of my nose. Man, I hope that isn't a nervous habit that i'm going to pick up.

    "Alright, well- I uhm. I don't really know where to begin.." I said, a bit awkwardly. This shouldn't be to weird right? Talking to my brother about my so called 'love life'? We're pretty close, and I usually talk to him about everything. Plus, I did confide with him about how I felt about Craig. But that was only because he caught me wearing his clothes and lying about being our cousin. I mean that wasn't so weird, so why does it feel weird now? Maybe because last time he caught me in the moment, and now this feels- well, planed.

    "Well from what I can tell you are currently in something, like a,--" James paused so that he could exaggerate by counting on his fingers while whispering these name ; ' (Y/n), Craig, Tweek and Kyle'.

    "A love square." He said holding up four of his fingers in my face. I could see a small smirk grow on his lips. I could tell he was holding back a bit of laughter, but I just decided to ignore it and just stare blankly back at him.

    "I am not in a love square..." I paused to think for a moment.

    "Am I?" I asked myself quietly.

    "Yupp. Seems to be, at least from what I have noticed... Are you telling me there are more?" James let his face grow a bit serious as he asked the last question.

    "No!! I don't even think there really is three of them!" I yelled as we both bust out laughing.

    "Alright, well why don't you tell me about Tweek. He seems to be the one I know least about." He let his laughter fade away by the time he was done speaking. James now looked at me as if he was seriously ready to listen to what I have to say.. I groaned as I rested my face in my hands.

    "That's because there's not that much to say about him really. Tweek's just a guy I got really close to. He was just a friend of course, but he liked me more than I kind of realized. I just felt bad hanging out with him all the time. I felt like I was leading him on, so I stopped seeing him. I hated hurting him, but it's just better this way." I can't believe how easily I am talking to my brother about this. I guess it does feel nice to let all of this off my chest, and at least he's someone who won't be hurt about the things I have to say. It's not like I can say these things to the guys, it would be way to hard and Id probably make myself sick.

    "Okay, so what about Craig?" James spoke like he was a professional Physiatrist. Maybe he's just doing this to get some practice before going to college, since he wants to take classes to become just that.

    "Oh. Yeah, Craig. As you know from the last time we talked, I've always had a crush on him. When I found out he wasn't gay, I also found out he like me back. Then things just went crazy when we tried hanging out. Nothing ever went right. It just sucks because I fell in love with him through all that mess." I made myself stop talking after I realized what I just told my brother. I didn't feel so good anymore. I don't particularly like talking about Craig. It just depresses me. Though, talking is making me feel better.

    "He's just so confusing- and it just seems like it'd be so much work for me to fix what I've already done. And then knowing me, I'd probably just make it worst." I took a deep breath, letting a moment of silence pass between my brother and I before continuing.

"Honestly- It's chaotic and it's stupid for me to feel this way for a boy who obviously wants nothing to do with me." I swallowed the lump that formed in my throat and decided not to look up at James, afraid he might spot the tears that were now brimming my eyes.

"And what about Kyle?" James saying Kyle's name brought a smile to my lips. The tears fading away as my smile grew.

"Ah, Kyle. Yeah I can't deny the feelings I have for him. When I'm around him, I feel- Happy. He makes me smile and he makes me feel safe..." I paused for a moment, frustrated with myself.

"I want to be with Kyle, I would love to be with him, just him and I. It's just so difficult..... I just-" I kept stampering over my words, not know what to say. Then James interrupted me.

"He's not Craig." I looked at my brother as he said this. Then I nodded. After everything I just said out loud, I felt stupid. And kind of skanky. I think James could tell how I felt, because before I could say anything else I felt his arms wrap around me in a quick, tight, hug and then his hand was patting my back.

"You'll be okay. Everything will work out." He ruffled my hair as he walked away.

"Why don't you go get some fresh air, go get some coffee or something." James handed me as twenty dollar bill as he opened the front door for me. I relaxed a bit.

"Thanks Jamie." I said, using the nickname I gave him when I was six. Coffee did sound nice. I made my way out the door knowing exactly where I was going. Some me time should do me some good.