Did I just lose you? (A Rydellington fanfic)

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Rydel's POV

We're back in LA for about 2 days now.Me and Ellington didn't talk about the misunderstood in New Jersey.Actually,we are kind of weird with each other.I feel like crap,for real.

Normally in days off,he'd spend the whole day with me doing nothing,just cuddling and watching a movie.I miss that.I miss Ellington.My bed feels empty without him.Actually,my heart feels empty.

Cheryl called me to help her with the recipes she'll use for the pre-Thanksgiving thing we'll have.So I'm at the Ratliff's now.

'Ok,this one sounds delicious' I say showing her a recipe

'Ohh,this one needs to be in every Thanksgiving...That's Ellington's favorite' Cheryl says picking the recipe and putting in the pill of the ones we'll make.

'I heard things aren't nice there' Cheryl says out of the blue

'Uhh,yeah...I am just building courage to actually stop being proud and go talk to him' I say

'He told me the exactly same thing.' Cheryl says

'I just wanna do something that makes him feel loved and special...I love him and he's so special and unique for me' I say getting up and putting my empty cup inside the washer.

'Do it,Del...It's in you two face that you're suffering.' Cheryl says and I nod.These days have been hell to me.I gotta fix this.

We finish everything and I go upstairs to Ellington's room.Cheryl told me he was all day here.I knock in the door and wait a bit.A few minutes later,he opens.He looks surprise in seeing me.

'Della?' He says surprise

'Hey...can we talk for a second?' I say.He nods and I get in.

He closes the door and faces me again.He's shirtless and in a baggy pants.Messy sexy hair.Doesn't he have a brush?

'Uhhh....You wanna talk?' He says

'Yes...uhh...Ell,I am sorry if I made you feel like I gave that guy in New Jersey hope' I say going straight to the point.

'I am sorry? I'm actually hearing that you're sorry for a thing you don't think you did?' He says sarcastically

'Don't be sarcastic,ok?...You know how hard for me is to admit I'm wrong' I say

'It's ok...I just didn't like the way you said...like,it's not nice seeing the woman you love aka your girlfriend giving other guy hope' He says.I smile and get closer to him

'You don't need to be jealous toward anyone...I love you! I want you' I say putting my arms around his neck.He looks at me and smiles.Then I remember I have to say the whole thing

'BUT you were rude to me' I say letting go off him.I sit in his bed putting my purse on it.

'It was not intentional' he says

'It hurt' I simply say looking up to him.

'I am sorry' he says almost whispering

'Besides the fact that we promise to tell each other everything when we felt bothered...You didn't' I say whispering and looking down the whole time.

'I am sorry' he says again

'Is that all you have to say? I am sorry? Crap,I am doing something really hard here! I am opening myself here!' I say getting up and picking my purse.I have a hard time admitting I'm wrong and ask sorry.I am very stubborn and proud person! And he knows it!

'Calm down,sunshine.I know it's hard for you' he says getting close to me and picking my purse.We both sit down again in his bed

'I am just trying to find the right words ' he whispers to me.