Did I just lose you? (A Rydellington fanfic)

Japan

Ellington's POV

So,I felt a completely jerk by fighting and being rude with Rydel because of that guy in New Jersey.I mean,that's not me alike at all.I am not the jealous type! I never felt jealous towards any girl but with Rydel is different.She makes me feel like she'll leave at any time or that she'll get sick of me.I know she doesn't give me reasons to believe she'll leave.She only gives me reasons that she'll stay but I don't know.I just feel,uhh,insecure.

After she gave me that album,it became a routine check it everyday.Not to remember that she loves me like it was her intension but to remind me how lucky I'm to have Rydel and to relive all of those memories.

We are making one together and I am trying to make a nice thing out of it.Maybe a new way to do the album.I don't know.I will figure it out.She showed me how special I'm,now it's my turn.

Right now,I am taking her to my brand new loft.I bought it when I was still dating Kelly but no one knew.I didn't tell anyone besides my parents and Kelly for the fact Kelly didn't like at all the idea of the loft.She thought it was ridiculous for me to live alone in a loft.

'So,you're gonna tell me where we are going?' Rydel asks.I look to the side a bit while driving to see her focus on her phone

'Uhh,I think you're gonna like it' I say hoping that she will truly love

'Well,if it makes you happy,I'll love it' She says.I quickly look at her again and she puts her hand in my cheek rubbing it with her thumb.What I did to deserve such an amazing woman?

We arrive at the loft and I park my car in the garage.I asked the dudes to come too but they will only be here 10 minutes later so I can show Rydel around.

'Looks nice...It's close to my house' Rydel says.I pick her hand and we get inside.All the furniture is already here and stuff.Hopefully,Rydel won't kill me for not telling her about this sooner.

'It's such a cool place,honey' she says while we are touring my new house.

'So,I'll move in when we come back from Japan' I say while we're in the rooftop.She looks at me and even though she's wearing sunglasses,I can see her shock expression

'What? Really?' She asked getting close to me

'Really...Your mad?'

'You never told me you got a loft and that you were decorating it...now you will move in! I'm not mad! I'm just...surprised' she says looking at me.She takes off her sunglasses and stares at me.

'Well,I got this when I used to date Kelly...She hated the idea so for a while I thought about giving up on the place but then my mom made me decorate it' I explain

'It got good' she says walking in the rooftop putting her sunglasses on

'Rydel,you are freaking me out with this silence of words' I say honestly.She gives me simple answers to everything since we got here.I don't know for sure if she is mad or surprise or whatever

'Ellington,I loved the place and if moving out for you is good then do it...I am not gonna love you less because you decided to move out of your parents house' she says looking at me

'You're not mad because I didn't tell you about it?' I ask almost in a whisper

'Well...mad is not the feeling...besides I promised myself I wouldn't be mad at you during the holidays' she says walking to the door that gives access back to the loft.I follow her as we get to the loft again

'You promised yourself? So,you're mad for real?' I ask following her

'Not mad...Honey,I'm surprised! That's all...and also I'm happy for you! Moving out is a huge step.' she says finally looking at me.She smiles kindly and kisses my cheek