In a few days i will be beginning college at The University of Illinois at Chicago, or UIC. I am ready for this change, I think. High school was plain and gray and boring. I spent the majority of those years with my nose in a book or headphones in my ears. I didn't have much friends except my best friend Avery and no real relationship. I dated a boy for a couple of months before he realized he "wasn't ready for a relationship". A month later, he had a new girl, a much prettier and more popular one. Ouch, yeah i know. I wasn't too torn up about it, but it sure was a kick to my already fragile ego.
I am not the prettiest girl, but I surely don't think i am ugly. I am not the thinnest, though I am curvier than most. This has always brought me unwanted attention from boys and men my whole life. In high school, sure I had a lot of boys after me, but they all wanted the same thing. Sex, and I never gave in, because none of those boys even cared to get to know me. I feel like in today's world, that's all that boys want.
I have never been in love. Everybody talks about how horrible heartbreak is, but nobody ever talks about how horrible it is to never have experienced love. I can't relate to the songs, the movies, not even the books. I want to know what love is. Hell, even heartbreak. What does it feel like to love someone so much? Maybe one day i'll find out.
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