Dell

CHAPTER 5

"What the hell was that? You couldn't even let me say bye?" I bark, annoyed that he made me look so rude.

"Why were you even talking to that square anyways?" James says ignoring what I just said.

"Because he was nice and sweet. Why wouldn't I talk to him?" I defend Cole.

"Well don't get your hopes up princess, he was probably just talking to you cause your tits are out." He says nonchalantly, as if he didn't just crush my ego.

"Wow." is all I can muster. I tug up my tank top and quickly pull on my flannel. Tears prick at my eyes, but I won't give him the satisfaction of making me cry. He took all my insecurities and made them real. I'm not stupid, I see how guys look at me. I've always been scared that they only want me for sex and James was quick to throw that in my face.

I rush towards the front door, hoping that some fresh air will calm me, and I run into Reese. Thank god.

"Reese can we please go? I wanna go home?" I beg. She takes one look at me and nods her head. She looks like she wants to ask me why I'm crying but she decides against it, and I am thankful. She goes to get James and we get in the car and leave. He stays silent the whole ride, and I am once again thankful, this alcohol makes me even more emotional than usual, and I don't think I can handle another one of his rude remarks.

When we arrive to the dorms, Reese gets out and walks me to my dorm.

"Hey are you okay?" she asks as we reach my dorm.

"Yeah I'm fine." I sniffle. I don't want to tell her that it was James that made me cry, he is her best friend after all. I can tell she doesn't believe me, but she doesn't pry either.

"Well okaaaay, if you ever wanna talk about something, I'm here." she says and writes down her number in my phone.

"Thanks Reese, sorry I was such a buzzkill tonight."

"You'll have better luck next time dork."

"I don't think there's gonna be a next time." I laugh.

"Yeah we'll see about that." she says with a cheeky smile, "Let me know if that cute roommate of yours asks about me." She winks and heads off down the hallway.

" I will." I chuckle, I knew she liked her. Considering Reese hit on me and Alex, I'd say it's true, opposites do attract. Reese's style is pretty punk, but she pulls it off well.

I go inside and the lights are off, so I quickly take off my makeup and go to my bed quietly to not wake Alex. My mind is racing with drunk thoughts of James. As much as I try, i can't stop thinking about him. Why does he have to be so mean to me? I literally did nothing to him, before today, I had barely said two words to him. If he won't be nice to me, I'm just going to have to avoid him. He's not good for my mental stability, I laugh to myself. I dream of hazel eyes, but halfway through my dream they turn to blue.

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Monday morning, I wake up and head to class. My day goes by fast and once I reach my third period, I am informed that the professor is not in, so we have a free period. I decide to go to the library since it is much too soon to go to psychology. As soon as I walk in, I feel at peace. There's just something so calming about being surrounded by books. I walk towards the shelves and start skimming through when I find something that interests me. Standing on my tippy toes, I reach for The Outsiders by S.E Hinton. It is one of my favorites, but it is on the top shelf and I am only 5'2. I mentally curse my genetics. I manage to shift the book, but of course, it falls to the other side. To my absolute horror, I hear a thump and someone curse. Oh god, I should just run away, but I know that I can't. Plus I really want that book. I go to the other aisle and begin to apologize, when I look up to see blue eyes and a curly mop of back hair. Cole.