Dell

CHAPTER 11

When we pull into the parking lot of the dorms, I move to open the door but I stop and turn around to face him. He looks over at me.

"Thank you."

"For what?" He looks confused.

"For answering my questions." Even the ones I asked myself and not him, he answered them today.

He gives me a smile in return. I half expect him to kiss me, but I guess it's baby steps with James. I get out of the car.

"Wait Dell." I hear the car door close and he stands in front of the car. He looks like he belongs on a classic car calendar. It sure is a sight to see.

He holds his arms open and I walk over to him. He holds me tightly before pulling back to give me a quick kiss. With that he gets into his car and pulls off, leaving me breathless and giddy.

I go to my dorm and Alex is already asleep. I lay in my bed and process today.

Today was the first day where I didn't question the feelings I have for James. And it didn't seem like he did either. He was mostly nice today and we actually had fun, but I can't help the uneasy feeling of not knowing where we stand together. I feel like things are moving so quickly, but I feel so comfortable with him, it's hard not to. He makes me feel like I can be myself, like I can do whatever I want. I have yet to decide if that is a good thing or a bad thing. I know I have to bring up the dreaded "what are we?" But god I don't want to. Deep down, I know I should, but truthfully, I'm scared that it's going to scare him off. If that's the case, then too bad. I have too much respect for myself to be somebody's secret. For now, I'm just happy with the way today went.

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The weekend comes by much too quickly. I spent the remainder of my week catching up on homework and thinking about James. It's Saturday evening and I have finished all my assignments for the upcoming week. Wow, I really don't have a life.

Alex, comes through the door, interrupting my thoughts.

"Hey Della!" She beams. She's always like a little ray of sunshine, it's adorable. "What are you up to?" She plops down on my bed.

"Just finished my homework for the next week, how about you?"

"I was actually going to come see if you wanted to watch a movie with Reese and I."

Her and Reese have been hanging out all week and now even the weekend. I am slightly jealous that they seem to be so obsessed with each other, but it is a harmless jealousy. I love them both and am so happy for them.

After our "date" if you could call it that, James hasn't come to my dorm or really talked to me other than in class. I wonder if he regrets going out with me. Insecurities start to seep into my head. If I stay here any longer, I will surely spend the whole day overthinking things.

"Sure, I'd love to go." I tell her with a smile.

"Well, were gonna leave in about an hour, so you should get ready." She says and turns toward her closet. "Actually, Della, do you think you can maybe help me get ready? I want to look nice." She looks down timidly.

"Oh honey, you always look nice, but of course I'll help!" I stand up to look through her closet. "Hey Alex, why don't you wear something of mine?" I offer. We are about the same size in tops, but not bottoms, she is definitely thinner than I am.

"Yeah right Della, I can't pull that off." She says but gives me an appreciative smile nonetheless.

"No really, if we do your makeup and hair you would look even more beautiful than you already do." She looks a little uncertain but smiles and nods her head.