love you forever and always- sequel to I met the sweetest carrot

chapter 11

Lola's pov

so me and Louis are christmas shopping right now, but I don't actually know where he went so I'm leaving him to do whatever he needs to do. While I was looking at something for Perrie and Sophia and the little mix girls Louis came up to me. 

"look babe, its my stage outfit but in baby form" he says

"Louis why were you looking at baby clothes when I'm not pregnant" i say

"well I was thinking maybe we could try" he says 

"but Louis we are boyfriend and girlfriend and I don't feel comfortable trying yet, I mean what if you leave. I will probably have to look after our child on our own. I'm not saying you will, its just there are so many conditions we need to think about before any of this happens" i say

"yeah I suppose, I will go put this back" he says with sadness in his voice

Its not that I didn't want to try for a baby, its just that what if he does leave, will he stay? will he leave? what would the boys say? how would he support us both when he is on tour? there are so many questions. I grab the presents that I wanted for the girls and meet Louis at the check outs and buy the stuff. 

we get in the car and he starts the car, he doesn't say anything and he doesn't hold my hand like he usually does. 

when we arrive home. We get out and I get the stuff out and he locks the car and goes up to our door and opens it. When we get in he goes into the music room, in the basement and I knew he was upset, he only goes down there if he is angry, sad or if the boys were working on songs. I now felt guilty. I put everything in our room and checked the time. 6pm. I made some dinner and took it down to him and he said thanks and I kissed his cheek and went back upstairs and ate. By 9pm he still hadn't come up. I opened the door and said night to his and he said night and I went to bed.