LUCI

15 - Conflicted

Conflicted

~ Having or showing confused and mutually inconsistent feelings ~

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I've never been so conflicted before. What the hell was I supposed to do with the information I just heard? My head feels like it's spinning so much right now. I could pretend that I didn't hear anything or go talk to Luci. I'm not even sure what I heard! 

I tiptoe closer to the office to hear more of what's going on. There is a lot of Italian swearing and shouting going on so I cannot understand everything that is being said. Occasionally they speak some English in between but it doesn't make sense.

"Boss. I'm sure we will find some other way but Paul was very clear that Emma is the only way to get Nicolo released alive" What the hell has happened? I'm confused but that was all I needed to hear. I'm clearly not thinking straight but I run straight to the garage and grab a random set of car keys. I click the button and hear a beep coming from the black jeep. I run over to it and jump in. It's been a while since I've driven but oh well, I know that I have to go see Paul. He cannot kill Nico just because of me. I won't let this happen! Everything is happening so quickly but I won't let someone die just because I ran away.

I speed out of the drive and I type in the houses destination because that's the only place I know Paul will be.

It's a long drive and I'm sure Luci and Santos have realised I'm gone by now. The more I think about it the more I realise that he probably doesn't care. Paul can't kill me, can he?

I pull up near the house and park the car. I cannot walk through the entrance as my mother probably thinks I'm missing. It's been a few days since I've been home. The short walk to the house feels eerie and I'm a little nervous because I'm about to meet mafia Paul. I have no idea what he's like.

I reach the front gates of the house and see a lot more guards that there used to be. I walk up to the four men by the gates and they just look at me.

"You know who I am and why I'm here. Take me to Paul" I say as confidently as possible. They both look at each other and then grab both of my arms, dragging me towards the house. My heart is beating in my chest so fast. I'm actually nervous. I move my legs as quickly as possible to keep up with the two men dragging me along. We don't go through the front enterance, instead I'm dragged through a door I never new existed at the side of the house. It leads us to a tunnel.

It's dark in here and I can't see a thing but the two men keep on dragging me.After what seems like forever, we reach a door where the guards knock on it a few times. We all stand there in silence which makes my heart beat even faster. The door swings open to reveal Paul, looking too smug about the situation.

"That was quicker than I thought. It looks like he didn't even put up a fight" He scoffs before walking away from the door. The two men drag me inside the room, which looks like it's a massive basement. All I can see is men sat at tables, laughing and joking. I'm dragged further into the basement. 

"Oi. Michelin man! I have legs, no need to keep dragging me." I fight, trying to yank my arms away from their grips. I'm over it now. I can walk, they don't need to pull me. Instead of loosening their grip, they tighten it. Ugh. They are so annoying. 

"Forgive them. It's a precaution" Pauls stupid ass voice sneers. Suddenly we all come to a stop when we reach another door. The men open it and shove me inside the room, sorry, I mean cell. The door slams shut behind me. I sigh, turning around to see whats inside the cell. In the corner of the room, I can see the outline of a figure. I slowly walk over to it before realising who it is.

"Oh my god! Nico! Are you okay?" I cry out. He's so beaten up. His skin looks painfully raw, his face is swollen and bruised. His torso is covered in blood. 

"Emma, why are you here? Tell me Luci didn't give you up that easily!" He weakly yells. He looks angry to see me? What the hell is going on. He mumbles something under his breath along the lines of 'I will kill him when I see him'.

I slump down onto the floor next to Nico and hold his hand, "I'm not really sure why I'm here or whats going on. Luci didn't see me leave, which means he's probably fuming because I left without telling him." I roll my eyes at the thought but then another thought crosses my mind. What if he doesn't care that I'm gone? I'm part of the Mafia. His Mafia. He has to care. 

"What do you know Em?" Nico asks wearily.

"Nothing" I sigh "I'm so confused" I confess. What have I walked into?

Nico lets out a pained sigh before talking again. "Paul wants you to be on his side. He wants you to sell his drugs and his weapons. The idea that we have you hurts him and he won't take that. He found out that I was working for Luci and he tortured me. I never said a word but he already knew that you were on our side. He wanted you and I was the easiest way to get to you."

So Paul needs me. Why does he need me to sell all of his shit. He must have loads of men to do that. Why me?

"I heard that you'll be let go if I came so I did. I snuck out of the house and came straight here." 

"Even if he lets me go. He will torture you until you do what he says. Please don't fight him. I cannot see you die just because you wanted to save me" Nico confesses. 

I don't say anything more. I can't say anything more. Would Paul hurt me if I didn't do what he said? Would I be breaking Omertà if I did what he said? The realisation finally hits me. Either way I'm going to die.  

We hear voices outside the door and the sound of keys jingling. "Emma. I promise we will come back and get you. Paul is a man of his word. He will let me go now he has you. I must tell you one thing" He sighs. "Paul is not the leader" Um excuse me what? How the fuck is Paul not the fucking leader? But if he isn't then who is? 

This day just seems to get more confusing by the second.

The door to the cell swings open and I see a tall muscular man, who looks like pretty much every other Mafia man. He points at Nico, ushering him towards the door. "Traitor, its time for you to leave" The man grunts. Nico obliges and weakly pulls himself to his feet before giving me one more look. He doesn't say another word to me as he leaves the cell. The door slams shut again, leaving me alone with only a little light to keep me from complete darkness. 

Now that I'm sat in this cell by myself, I realise how completely alone I feel. Yes I know I'm literally alone but like I feel empty. I don't even know what Paul wants from me. How long is he going to keep me in here? It could be days or just hours. Nico told me not to fight him but I don't want to work for him. I cannot break Omertà or I will be killed. I know what I signed up for. Although Paul is the one ordering all of the men around, he isn't the leader which confuses me. Why do all of the men respect him so much?

I have so many questions but nobody is around to answer them. 

I scoot myself into the corner where Nico used to be sitting and I rest my head against the wall. Before I know it, my eyes become heavy and I fall asleep. 

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