LUCI

22 - Angst

Angst

~ A feeling of dread, anxiety, or anguish ~

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A whole month has passed since I was saved from my mother and bought home. A whole goddamn month. I hate living in this constant fear. The fear of not knowing what's going to happen. I wish this feeling would go away. Everyday I sit in this stupid, boring ass house and wait. I'm not aloud to leave because something could happen to me, I'm not aloud to anything! I was told that for my own safety I have to stay within the house, within the eyes of a guard, within Luci's reach. I miss the freedom I used to have. It's kind of driving me crazy. I mean, I do understand why I'm not aloud to go anywhere, do anything or see anyone but still. It's boring.

I don't like not knowing what my mother will do next. We don't know if she will come after me, or Luci or even Alex. All four of the boys have been trying to track my mother and Paul down but they're nowhere to be found. They are very good at hiding.

Apart from living in constant fear that me or my family are going to be kidnapped, I'm actually doing pretty good. Bored out of my mind, but good. My brother and I have been spending more and more time together. Nico and Santos have been driving me crazy but it makes living here more entertaining. Luci and I have been doing great too. He's been working a lot but every minutes he's not, we're spending time together. He's actually a big old softy but you would never know. His tattoo, muscles and cold dead eyes would tell you otherwise but to me he is a sweetheart.

At night, he holds me like he's afraid I'm going to disappear again. In the morning, before he goes off and works, he makes me breakfast. He treats me well. I know were not together but it's like we are. We have talked about it though. We are not dating but he did tell me that if another guy touched me, the way he did, he would kill them. He also said he would make it a very painful death for the poor man. A little possessive but I feel the same way. I asked him why he doesn't want me to be his girlfriend and he said that he doesn't want to ruin anything. Personally, I think he's just being a bit of a wuss but I'm not going to tell him that.

We told my brother about whatever we have going on and he was a little angry at first because I'm his baby sister but he's getting used to the idea of Luci and I. I'm glad he's getting used to it because I really like Luci and it would feel weird if my brother didn't approve.

"Get up loser, we're going out" I hear the familiar voice of Luci order.

"Who are you calling a loser?" I question as he stands in front of me. I'm lounged on the couch in my grey sweats and a black Calvin Klein bralette. I swear this couch has an Emma shaped dent because I basically live on it.

"You, now come on and get changed! Nobody else is aloud to see you like that" He orders. Again!

"Nope"

"Oh come on! The one time your actually aloud to leave, your saying no?"

"Yep"

"I'm sorry for calling you a loser" How can I be mad when he says that in the cutest way possible. Too bad he didn't! The bitch apologised but didn't really sell it so I'm going to continue being petty.

"Nope, not a good enough apology" I say as bluntly as possible.

He doesn't let me say anything else and he doesn't even try to apologise again as he picks me up off of the couch and throws me over his shoulder. He marched upstairs and throws me onto the bed, causing me to let out a scream.

"Stay there" Luci glares. I let out a groan but do as I'm told. I want to leave this house! I don't even know where we're going but I don't care. I'm bored!

Luci comes back in front he closet and throws me a pair of my black jeans and one of his jumpers. I roll my eyes and strip off my joggers. I chuck the olive coloured hoodie over my head and I feel a pair of arms wrap around my waist as I'm about to lean down and grab my jeans.

"I've changed my mind. We're not going anywhere" He groans as he tightens his grip around my waist.

"No please! I just need to leave this house. I'm slowly going crazy" I whine. I'm pretty sure I hear Luci mumble something along the lines of me already being crazy. For that he deserves what I'm about to do.

I lean down to grab my jeans off of the bed and I push my ass into his crotch. I hear him moan, which I admit turns me on, but I stand back up and put my jeans on instead.

"I'm going to get you for that later but your right, we have business to attend to" He groans as I do my jeans up and grab his hand. He interlocks our fingers and I drag him down the stairs. I lead him towards the garage and he grabs a set of keys on the way. He unlocks the car and I look to see which one we're taking. I'm so excited to be leaving the house so I basically jump in joy when I see which car we are taking. I run over to the car, my favourite one. The black jeep.

"So where are we going?" I ask as Luci gets into the car. "Also aren't we supposed to have a few guards with us?"

"We're going to the compound because I've got a meeting and figured you'd want to get out of the house. Also to answer your other question. Yes but they annoy me so they're in two other cars behind us" He tells me and I smile contently.

I'm finally leaving the house.

It's a reasonably long drive to the compound, like it always is, but once we arrive I'm so excited. I've been to the compound a few times but it's still pretty cool every time. I mean it's the Mafia! Damn. I sound like a kid right now.

"I've got to go to this meeting, I'll see you in probably an hour" His Italian accent is really strong today and I can say I'm loving it.

"Please try not to get blood on your shirt this time" I tell him. It's an actual problem I never thought I would have to deal with. He's come home most days with blood on his shirt and I know it's because he's a Mafia leader. His job description is literally killing people and selling drugs. He's been on a killing spree trying to find my mother and Paul.

"I'll try but just for you" He smiles before he kisses me.

"Ugh. Stop with the PDA. Please" I hear a whiny voice pleading from behind me.

"Shut up Alex" I hear Luci tell him before he gives me another kiss.

"Dude is she coming to the meeting?"

"No" Luci replies in his Mafia Boss Voice. Alex grabs Luci's shoulder and drags him away from me so I cannot hear their conversation.

After a few minutes Luci comes back looking angry and Alex walks behind him looking extremely smug. "You can come to the meeting" Luci says through gritted teeth. I didn't even know I wanted to go to the meeting but I'm a little bit excited that I get to go. Luci immediately storms off towards the basement.

"How'd you get him to do that?" I ask Alex.

"I told him I wouldn't agree with something if he didn't let you come with us. You're part of the team too, you should get to come to the meetings"

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Missed me? It's been less than a week but here you go! I should have another one out for you soon!

100% a filler sorryyyyyyy. I also skipped a month or things weren't going to move along.

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