Cheryls POV:
I haven't slept since seeing Kimberley on tv yesterday. I was trying to put everything into context but it was proving difficult. When im with Jean i feel like i love him and same goes with Kim. But when im with him i think of her and when im with her i dont think of him. Was that telling me something?
She wrote that song thinking of me. I dont understand why but she did. Just when she's up i knock her down and i can't keep doing that to her. Its not fair.
"Cheryl, im nipping out. Love you babe."
"Okay, love you too."
I didn't care to know where because all my thoughts are with Kim. I kiss her and i want more. I don't see her but i want too. All the time. I text her that last night she didn't reply. Maybe she was fed up of me now. Maybe she's given up because i dont know where my head is.
I text Nic and ask her to come round in an hour. I needed help in sorting my head out and she knows us both so hopefully she can give me an answer.
Kimberleys POV:
I haven't text her back. One minute she's here the next she's not. Her coming and going isn't helping me, so maybe i should just give up. I was fed up of being alone in this situation. Maybe i should head back to NYC. Everything was easier over there and maybe i could just throw myself back into work and get my head clear again.
I didn't know if it would work but i was going to try. Sooner the better.
Cheryls POV:
Nic had just arrived and i made her a cuppa.
"Here babe"
Thankyou chez. So whats up?"
"I don't know where to start." I smile sadly.
"Oh. Well are you and Jean alright?"
It hurt actually that she asked that. Maybe it showed to other people i cared more for Jean than KIm. If she asked that question a few months ago then she would've said Kim.
"I dont know about that either. I think he knows somethings wrong."
"Why?"
"I've been distant from him ever since.."
"Since Kim?"
"Y-Yeah. I don't know whats happening Nic. My heads so messed up. My feelings are so messed up."
"You feel something for them both. It happens to everyone."
"But i shouldnt Nic im fcuking married."
"You can't help it. Kimberley is Kimberley she always have a hold on you."
"I know but why her. Why?"
"Why not?" She asks challenging me to answer.
"Because...well becuase everytime she gets close i knock her back. I break her heart everytime she opens up because i can't get around my feelings." Nic just smiles at me as i say this.
"I think you've just answered yourself babe."
"I cant go there Nic. I have a ring on my hand."
"So? Cheryl you need to be happy. Whoever that may be with. Honestly. I think everytime it'll always be Kim."
"I do feel something for Jean i think? I did for deffo."
"Yeah but thats how everyone is when they meet someone new. But cheryl, kim has been there from the beginning, through it all and she's still here. Will her be that many years down the line?"
