Cheryls POV:
Im so nervous. Ive been up all night. I've not ate this morning and i've barely spoke two words to Kim, so god knows what she must be thinking. In all honesty all i could think about was telling Jean the right way. How do you explain to someone your in love with a girl. A girl, well woman, who you've known for ten years and is more like a sister than a best friend.
I'm brought out my thoughts as she sits next to me on the sofa.
"You okay?" She asks smiling and pulling a stray piece of hair out my eye and tucking it behind my ear.
"Yeah i think so."
"I love you." She tries and i can see her looking at me. I can tell from her posture shes nervous too.
"Yeah i know...I-I love you too." The stutter didnt help her nerves as she sat back staring at the wall infront of us playing with the sleeves of her oversized jumper.
"I thought maybe we could watch a film tonight, just sit back and relax with some chocolate and wine?" It was a thoughtful suggestion.
That was my favourite thing to do whenever im down.
"I might not be here tonight." I sigh.
"Why not, i thought we said.."
"I know what we said Kim!!" I snap and she sinks back into the sofa.
After another minute or two i give in and apologise for being a tw@.
"Im sorry, i just dont want to feel like im rubbing it in his face."
"And what would that be chez? Because you keep blowing hot and cold. One minute your saying i love you and the next you can barely get it out. You havent looked me in the eye all morning." She starts to cry and lifts her sleeves to cover her eyes.
"I do love you. Honest to god i do thats not the problem."
"Then what is?" She sobs out.
"Lifes not that easy to just have the one person you love the most."
I get up and drob my mug in the sink. I come back into the room where we was sat.
"I may not be back tonight but i'll be back and when i am, He'll be out the picture i promise." I say softly as i kneel infront of her.
"Promise you wont be long."
"I promise, i'll be here and i'll give you all my love because i love you okay?."
"Okay."
"Kiss us." She smiles slightly.
She kisses me softly for quite a while. I touch my forehead onto hers and wiped away her tears.
"No more tears, i'll be back i promise." I say holding out my pinky.
She looks into my eyes trying to see if i was telling the truth and im guessing she believed me when she wrapped her pinky around mine. I lift our hands and kiss hers and she mirrors my action.
I rub her cheek and then leave her. The roads are quiet so it doesnt take as long as i would have liked to get home.
He's definitely in as i see his car parked in the driveway. I pull up just behind his, turn off the engine and just sit there for a while. It was going to be tough but in all the thinking time i had this morning it had to be done. I'd already messed Kim around enough, i needed to do this for her. For us.
"Babe, why didnt you let me know you werent coming home?" He asks as soon as i enter the house.
He comes to hug me put i put my hand out hitting his chest keeping him away.
