ORPHANS: NCT DREAM

40 | true feelings

MARK

"this is orphanage violence, and it is against the rules." sister lina said blankly, with her feet on the table. me and donghyuck stood in front of her, heads hanging down and looked like we were sorry.

"now, whatever go and clean the attic as a punishment." she pointed at the door. "clean the both of you, and leave." she said angrily.

"no sister lina, i was the first one who attacked, donghyuck did nothing wrong. so i should be the one who cleans, only me." i spoke, my head still hanging and sweats were rolling down my forehead.

donghyuck glanced at me, i could see it on my eye corners.

"whatever fine then, haechan go and put hello kitty band aids or something on your face." sister lina sounded so careless, and she is, she never cares for anyone in this orphanage.

"yes sister lina." i said, me and donghyuck both walked out, silence. i turned the other way, as he stopped me.

"mark hyung, im sorry-"

"don't, i should be the one who is saying sorry. im just really pissed off at you donghyuck." i sighed, trying to keep my tempo calm. "you are such a jerk, now....i don't wanna talk with you i might get insane again." i grabbed my wrist away from his palm.

i quickly walked away, and didn't looked back. i walked, as i disappeared from donghyuck's sight. it made me breathe better, and even remain calm a bit. i inhaled, and exhaled.

gosh, why did i do that to him? he is just a young, stupid boy. what is this feeling making me do to him, because of my feelings i did this.

no, i shouldn't blame my feelings, it's almost like blaming aeri.

i just hoped i never got feelings for her, because she is a family to me, i can't just say i like her.

wait, oh no.

i totally sounded like donghyuck. i didn't confessed because i was afraid, because she was a family to me. but at least i never been a jerk to her.

after all, me and donghyuck were the same.

we fell for this girl, because we might thought the same thing. she is wonderful, strong inside and even outside, beautiful inside and outside. she is just indescribable, and too perfect to even explain with words.

yes, i admit it, i like, i love moon aeri. i was jealous when i heard that she liked donghyuck, and that donghyuck liked her.

but as a leader, i should cheer her up and support her. and as a boy, who has a crush on her, i should do everything just to make her happy, with that beautiful smile she owns.

but as i also said, you can never control your feelings, because the heart chose it.

"but i don't want to, but i also want to!" her voice spoke inside my head.

me too aeri, i want to love you, like you, adore you like you adore donghyuck. i want to confess to you, but i also don't want to.

after all, not only me and donghyuck were similar.

it was all the three of us. me, aeri and donghyuck were all the same after all.

note: MAeri. ship name, lololololool idk. man!