Communication| b.x.b. X/CB

Letter # 1

January 17, 1968

Dear Jahseh,

    Since I've moved away almost two weeks ago, we haven't been able to see each other very often. But I remember before I left, in that intimate moment that we last shared together, we promised to write each other all the time. I won't break my promise baby. It would be kind of hard to not write to you since I'm always thinking about you. You never seem to leave my mind.

     If under any circumstances I cannot write to you, I'll try to call if I can ever get the phone from my mom and sister. You know I don't really like to call. People in my house can't seem to mind their own business, and I don't want anyone to hear out extra private conversations. And I also know that you don't when around your family. It's okay. One day we won't have to hide each other or be ashamed. We can freely be us and love each other as openly as we like without stares or people trying to hurt us. I'll keep you updated on how it is here in New York. Write me back as soon as you read this sweetheart.

                                    Love,
                                               Christopher

My heart fluttered and did flips in my chest. Christopher remembered to write me just as we promised. I couldn't stop blushing for anything right now. I was so down and upset when he left and nothing had been able to cheer me up since. I'd been having attitudes and snapping on people. This letter just made all the more difference in my day.

I rush downstairs and to my fathers desk. I grab some paper and a fountain pen before rushing back upstairs to my room. I was giggling like a little girl while I was writing.

Dear Christopher,

    I got your letter, lover boy. I'm so glad you remembered to write! My attitude has been horrible lately. Going off on people left and right! Maybe because missed you. Most likely because I haven't had any love from you since the day you left. That'll all change in a few months once you visit in a few months. I'll counting down to the summer. I guess I underestimated how bad it would feel to not see the one person that makes you feel like your floating every time they're near.

      Write me back immediately. I can't go too long without hearing from you. Don't keep me waiting, baby. I love you.

                                         xoxo Jahseh

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🤸🏽‍♀️right into 2019 with a new book I most likely won't complete.