metanoia /ˌmɛtəˈnɔɪə/

Cross your mind

It was time for our break which I desperately needed it since my stomach kept grumbling the whole lecture and honestly it was embarrassing to an extent where I had to put a book on my stomach to stop the noise however I still felt nauseous. All of this happened happened because of the jerk, Zac, who wanted to come early to school because he wanted to talk to the professor before the lecture which I doubt since he is always with this blonde bimbo or his other perverted friend any ways, therefore I ended up not eating.

However, I reached my college after this eternal and tiring walk which is something good for this day. Note-This is me trying to be positive and let me tell it's not working.

I reached the cafeteria thinking that I will finally satisfy my need of food but I was shocked from the scene in front of me. My insides were boiling although they shouldn't however these feelings erupted in me and at this moment controlling them was the hardest thing I could do. All of this happened because of Zac who was passionately kissing Caroline in front of everyone shamelessly and she even wasn't his wife. 

I know he didn't promise me anything but the least he can do is respect this marriage. Seeing him kissing this girl pierced my heart deeply making my eyes well with tears as they were bulged due to my intense shock. I never thought his standards would stoop that low honestly.

My legs were numb and moving them was very hard maybe I didn't want to move thinking that there's a chance that I might be dreaming thus hoping for this nightmare to end. But it didn't. And reality is harsh.

In addition to this, what I wasn't prepared was when his dark icy blue eyes connected with mine and he deepened his kiss with with Caroline making her moan disgustingly and my heart clench from pain. He was challenging me to stop this hookup session with a girl whom I saw with another guy the other day. His eyes were so focused on mine with an evil glint in them and I knew he was enjoying watching me suffering with my emotions. I masked my pain and stretched a fake smile on my face walking towards them.

"I hope he's a good kisser Caroline.."I said acting indifferent.

"What the f*ck do you want?" she responded with frustration because I interrupted their intimate kiss.

"Nothing but... my advice for both of you is take a room before things get heated up" I pointed out as if I didn't care.*cough* *cough* 

"How about you mind your own f*cking business" Caroline snarled ready to pounce at me.

"What if I don't." I shrugged my shoulder as I look up at Zac and the moment my eyes saw his I was frozen. His rage filled eyes made me paralyzed from fear of what is going to happen to me next.

"Caroline you can go_" He said his voice full of authority.

"but_"he interrupted saying, "I said GO!" he bellowed.And she disappeared which made feel a bit relieved but the fact I'll be facing Zac now made my relief disappear also.

Suddenly, I was dragged harshly by my wrist out of the Cafeteria.

"Let me GOO!" I screamed with tears streaming down my face because of how painful his grip on my wrist was.

I squirmed my arms however in vain, in fact he was grip was tightening making me feel more pain.I don't know where was he taking us and my eyes were not helping since they were seeing everything blurry.

Then, he left my wrist on to grip my shoulders smashing me to the wall behind me. "Aaaah" I screamed closing my eyes waiting for this nightmare to end.

"Oh I see you have feelings.." he sarcastically said while slowly stroking his thumb on my cheeks wiping my tears off in the process. His act was too sudden that I couldn't contain my shiver when he did it and for a moment I was going to lean into it.

"I have an advice for you sweetheart" He said with a husky voice. My heart leaped in excitement and my stomach erupted with butterflies when I heard the word 'sweetheart' in spite of the fact that I know it means nothing to him but it does to me. I looked up at him when I heard this word just to reassure my crazy heart however when I did my breath was caught in my lungs. His lustrous blue eyes were dark and hypnotizing to the extent where I can break this eye contact. I know I am not supposed to do this but I was lost with him and he was amused by this hence making my confusion.

Reality hit me hard since I was doing something wrong!

"Zac" I was breathing raggedly however went on"C-c-can y-you let me go" I said while stuttering. Damn my mouth and nervousness!

"Do you want me to let you go....Delilah" he drawled his eyes piercing in my soul with a glint of amusement in them. My name was like a melody coming out of his mouth.

I was shocked from the nerves he got. His ego is bigger than this country!

"P-p-please" I said fearing his reaction.

And without any introduction his demeanor changed 360 degrees and his eyes were icy cold making me shiver from fear this time.

"Mind your own business and DONT.CROSS.YOUR.LIMITS. DO you hear me !" he threatened while shaking my small form vigorously in his large hands.

And with that he left me as usual with my misery!