metanoia /ˌmɛtəˈnɔɪə/

Alexithymia

Alexithymia~an inability to describe emotions in a verbal manner.

God please save mrs.Jane. I kept praying with all of my heart while we were waiting in the hospital.

I feel so guilty now to the extent where if something to her I will never forgive myself.
I shouldn't have left her alone.

I haven't realised I was crying until a teardrop slipped to my hands while I was praying.

"Where is she?!What happened Zac? Delilah what happened someone answer me!!" Mr.Willian was panicking infront of us and for a moment I felt that I was the one to blame so I lowered my head shamefully and started sobbing.

I didn't have the audacity to look at him. I couldn't!! Even Zac couldn't look at him. The guilt was eating me alive.

An involuntary sob escaped my mouth. I put my hand on my mouth not daring to look at Mr. williams. The density of my shame forced me into taking my shaking legs to the bathroom with my head low.

I washed my face, a weak attempt of making myself feel better. I looked at my redshot eyes through the mirror.

How much I hate myself because of my indulgence. I feel like I was so careless. If anything happens to Mrs. Jane I won't forgive my self. NEVER.

I should have stayed downstairs. All of this wouldn't have happened.

DELILAH this is fate you can't change it. Don't question God's fate. My subconscious told me.

Alhamdulillah things could have been worse just pray god nothing happens to her. I gathered myself for a while then went outside.

I was walking through the hallway until I stopped to see something weird.

A person was talking to Alexander and his attire was very intimidating. His stance radiated an aura of authority and wealth. His eyes were skeptic and cold. Zac was glaring at him with so many mixed and undesirable emotions.

"Zac leave" The man sneered.

Zac gave him an indifferent look then went to what I think is the cafeteria when Alexander gave him a pleading look.

"I want Jane's share before she's dead" he ordered rudely. How could a man be so rude!

I couldn't stop myself from eavesdropping but this man. He's a mystery and I am the most curious person you can meet.

"Over my dead body" Alexander said.

"Don't make me use other ways Alex!" he threatened.

"What can you do more than you already did John!" Alex growled.

"Zac is under MY mercy and I did all that because of our deal however now if you don't give me your share to Zac. He will have more power over me and I don't want any rivals do you hear me!" he seethed with such cruelty while emphasizing one the word 'MY' with so much arrogance.

"If this is what you want ok then... I'll give you time until you guys want and if you don't give me this share at anytime.. I will kick Zac out of our lives with nothing and my home especially where his so called damily is. Even if he has shares he will have with no shelter and I will make sure that no one from this town would rent him a house or even talk to him. I will make his life miserable and no one should be blamed for except you and Jane. You hear me!" He screamed while pointing a fingert in his chest.

Why is Zac the victim here?
For once I have felt bad for him despite all what he has done for me.

He strided away from Alexander who was on the verge of crying but didn't make the tears fall because of his masculinity. 

"Alex" I said softly while approaching him slowly.

" Oh I am sorry you had to hear that di" he said wiping his face although there  were no tears.

" It's ok Mr.Williams every family has problems in it" I said to soothe him a bit.

" What hurts the most is that he is also family for Zac but he doesn't treat him as one" he said sorrowfully.

"I am sorry for that Alex..I really wish I could help but he seems a really heartless person" I said bewildered.

"I won't give him that share dii you know why"

"why?" I asked.

" If I do that this whole town and Zac would be under the mercy of a person who has no mercy!He will approximately own this whole town!"he said desperately." However is the son I neverhad.. I know this man he has no limits..He crazy..He could really hurt him although he already did!" he continued making my heart constrict because of the intensity of his cruelty.

"Who is he to Zac?" I questioned.

"Do you believe it if I tell you that he is Zac's uncle"
To say I was shocked would be an understatement. " What? How could he threaten you with HIS nephew!?"

"He is a man who's hungry for money and when a man doesn't control his lust he will become a living beast and that's what happened to John,"he explained.

This moment I have a lot of unanswered questions registered in my mind. This gave me the courage to question him something I really wanted to ask.

"Where are Zac's parents" I hesitantly asked.

"They're dead dii but he doesn't to talk about it...for now at least.. I have to see my Jane" I was stunned. What!!??!! How could a person live with all this grief and doesn't show it!

NEVER JUDGE A BOOK BY IT'S COVER

Where the words that I kept singing in mind.
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Sorry for the late update!♡