metanoia /ˌmɛtəˈnɔɪə/

Surviving college

I arrived to the place I most fear at the moment. The massive buildings and spacious fields make me feel lost. I could feel my stomach clench from nervousness..Oh god help me!

"Dii...where were you lost? look I know you are nervous since it's your first day but here in this place if you wanna live you need to be strong, you need to show all these people that you don't give a f*ck ok!!"

I contemplated what she was telling you then I hugged her because this was the first since many years that I have felt cared for.

"You truly are the sister I never had,"I said with a smile. I know I am clinging to every nice person I face but you can't blame me...being alone is hard.

"You know I know a lot of people Dii like aloott but I don't trust anyone and my advice is for you to follow this motto in life-never trust anyone"she continued then saying" I have to confess people don't really accept Islam in here..be careful because the university might have accepted you but not all the students will!"

"Don't worry..life wasn't easy on me so I guess I have some experience but thanks for being near me"

"Ohh stop it with these good words I'm not used to it.Now come on we have a long day ahead of us" she ushered me out.

We entered the college side by side and I felt my face blushing since my attire is capturing all eyes around us. Come on it's only a hijab haven't you seen on before. I guess they didn't!
Then Bea waved to a group of girls a head of us and walked towards them while tugging me with her.

"Hey gurlsss" she slurred sarcastically.

"Hey Beatrice long time no see" a girl with black hair hugged her. She seemed nice I thought.

"Well you know my dad is a busy man and I guess I'm going to follow his route unfortunately" she clarified.

A girl with red hair studied me rudely with her eyes then said, " who is she the janitor!" I could see the venom slipping from her mouth.

Some of the girls snorted but actually I didn't mind her words because I know who I am and what I look like. I'm satisfied with all what God gave me. Thank you Allah!

"No one asked your opinion redhead," I smiled at her and said,"nice to meet you too!"

"Stop acting like a b*tch Caroline she is still new!! godd you're unbelievable!!" Bea defended.

"What?? Look at her and you watch your tongue" She pointed a finger at me.

I looked at her crafted nail. Wow they are well done.

" Wow I think your nail is broken," she checked her nail as if I told her someone died. How dull I snorted mentally.

Bea and some girls laughed at her reaction. She glared at me " troll"I grinned at her.

She looked behind me at someone and said, "Hey babeeeee" her face changed 360 degrees. How talented I wish I could do that.

I turned around from my curiosity to see the first person I definitely am not in the mood to see.

Zac and his glory!!!! He's everywhere like literally I could find him in my food.

" Bea " he called out ignoring the redhead -caroline.HEHEHE  I evily laughed but internally.

He glared at me when he noticed my presence. ohh what a nice way to greet someone I thought sarcastically.

"Don't leave without me today. I want a drive " he talked as a normal human being and to tell you I was shocked was an understatement.

" Ok but where...I also have to drive Bea to Alex" She said.

"Does she have to be in everything I do," he said with an irritated face.

I raised my eyebrows " What shall I do for you to be satisfied because as you know I really do care for your happiness!"

"Just stopp it with your sarcasm" he scowled.

I folded my hands while scrunching my brows and pouting at him. He stared at me challengely then turned his attention to Bea.

"Just wait for me ok. It won't go far anyways..you what your father did so please ok" he ignored me. As if I care!

"Don't worry I'll come but David might come since I'm spending the afternoon with him Ok?"

Who's David. Wow I'm just a thirdwheel heyyyyy guyss.

Zac looked agitated when David's name came up.

"Ok whatever you want" and he went.

Although Zac is one of the most ruthless men I have seen in my life but I was stunned to see the way he treats his cousin Bea. He was actually caring about her. Well I hope he becomes a better person.

The first day of college felt like years and my faculty is different from Bea so I was left alone in my class. But guess what what Zac is also studying Law and I saw him sitting far.

I was relieved when I realized that a few minutes for the lecture are left for it to end.

I made a happy dance in my mind when the proffessor said, " you're excused"

However my happiness couldn't be complete because as you know clumsy is my middle name since I had to practically run the stairs of the class which made me end face first on the floor. Actually it was nose first because my nose hurts as hell "owww" I said while rubbing my nose not noticing that I was making a small scene on the ground.

"How pathetic...even in college" Zac said while shooking his head.

"I think these legs aren't enough for you...maybe we could turn you into a four-legged animal" he continued and a few students laughed at what he said. Where are we in high school because as I observe bullying here is an issue.

I scrunched my nose while trying to process what he just said.

"This is the most stupid thing I ever heard in my life" I said which was directed more to myself but you know him being Zac is what makes it hard for him to shut his mouth.

"Well guess what I don't care" He said while smirking.

I collected my books and stood up while smiling at him my remarkable one then said," keep it up...you are doing a very good job hurting me" I faked a hurt expression and patted his shoulder. He tensed under my touch then I stormed off.

However I was immediately stopped when I heard someone yelling,"heyyy excuse me"

I turned around to see a cute boy with blonde hair which was wavy, frameless glasses and full cheeks. Omg he is the baby kind of cute I could stay all day pinching his cheeks.

"Hey I'm Ryan...umm you forgot this" He gave me my notebook.

I smiled and took it.

"I'm Delilah, you can call me dii if you want"

" I like your name its different...Ohh and don't mind Zac he's an ass whole sometimes."

"Sometimes!!Are you sure" I laughed.

"Well he's hard I confess," he snorted.

"Thank you..nice to meet you Ryan"

"Nice to meet you too"

Well I guess we have a new friend!