metanoia /ˌmɛtəˈnɔɪə/

Losing Myself

What did I do wrong in my life to get stuck with him in the same CAR!

Truthfully nothing has happened because Bea was busy talking with David who turned out to be her boyfriend and Zac well what can I say. He couldn't just get his eyes off me-just kidding he was treating me as if I was dust.

You know actually if I was dust he would have coughed or sneezed so basically things would have been much better if I was dust. Nevermind I'm just being dramatic

What killed me the most is that he sat next to me and for me I couldn't easily ignore his presence.

"Heyy Bea...how much time do we have left. I'm getting car-sick," I asked feeling nauseous.

"We have got like 30 minutes left so I suggest you sleep if you are car sick."

"Really...its not that easy!" I glared at her from the mirror; she replied with with a cheeky grin. My problem when I'm car sick is that I feel dizzy and because of my dizzyness I couldn't even sleep.

"I suggest we put you in the trunk if you are going to be a headache" Zac said still not looking at me.

" Tell me Zac....Who even talked to you because from what I remember is that I called out for Bea. Are you Bea? Do you guys have the same name?" I taunted.

He turned around and closed the distance between us "Watch out your tongue sweatheart because if I were you I would have been more careful" he hissed.

"Haaa could have scared me " I snorted.

I closed the distance more till our noses were touching " you think that by intimidating me in this way you could scare me...well guess what try another one. " I smirked at him.However our closeness made a pulse something shoot through my veins as we continued oir glaring contest at such close proximity. Mu heart was beating out of my chestand my limbs felt numb. For a moment I felt my anger dissipate as I stared into his blue orbs. THIS IS DANGER!!

I know what your thinking now 'I'm a hijabi how could I do that' but I won't let him intimidate me. I don't want him to take advantage of me because I'm a Muslim.

Even his eyes they captured me in a way I couldn't describe. They were so intense and dark espescially when I was close. However I won't fall for them!!

Ohh no no no no this is wrong. This shouldn't be happening.

I backed away immediately turning crimson and I was careful not to make eye contact with him so he won't see my embarrassment.

I looked at him from the tip of my eye and he kept staring at me in his place then he backed away and turned his head to the window as if nothing happened.

I should clear my mind I thought to myself. Therefore I put my headphones and listened to some calm music so I could relax.

I kept on looking at the breath-taking farms and prairies on my left until I fell into deep slumber.
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I woke up when I felt something cold was splashed on me all of a sudden. I opened my eyes and saw Zac with an empty bottle in his hands.

"I just couldn't keep you sleeping peacefully like that" he smirked and threw the water bottle on me.

" Ahhhhh!" I yelled feeling chilly.

"Hey Zac this is not the way I told you to wake up Dii" Bea scolded him.

"Well this is my way and if you don't like it then don't ask...and I have took too long waiting for this lazy ass to move.. I'm going "he took his backpack and went to Mr.William's house.

Ohhh don't tell me he will stay here nooooo. I will just ignore him and his existance.

HA-HAA could have fooled me! Just shut up I scolded my consciousness.

"Dii I won't be coming as I said I will spend my afternoon with Daveee" She squealed idiotically.

I laughed at her silliness.

"Ok well have fun" I winked at her and went " bye dave".

"Bye Dii...I wish you good luck tolerating Zac" Dave said causing me to chuckle.

"J'espere!" then I left.

As I entered through the door I was greeted by Mr.Williams.

"Hey Mr.Williams" I greeted.

" ohhh you still call me that...I'm still in my youth you know don't make me feel old just call me Alex" he joked.

"Alright hey Alex" I repeated with a cheeky grin.

He pinched my cheeks " Has anyone told how cute you are"

I blushed a little then laughed timidly.
"not really"

"why are you soaked? what happened?" he asked concerned.

" Nothing Alex. It's just that Zac was being kind as always by waking me up with a bottle of COLD water!" I said sarcastically with stupid hand gestures making him laugh.

"Omg diii your sarcasm is off limits" he said while chuckling.

Then Zac came and his glory of course with a towel wrapped around his neck. It seems like he had just gotten out of the shower because his hair was wet and it was oh so nice!!

Shut up.OK.

"What's the matter Alex...never seen you laugh in a while," Zac said not aware of my presence.

"Well unlike you Zac, Dii here is funny and full of life. I could stay with her forever and never feel bored" he complimented me which was why my face turned fifty shades of red.

His face expression became blank as his eyes landed on mine. Wow fast reflexes I thought.

"I don't care Willy" Willy? really?

"I should go change" I excused myself.

After I closed the door behind me I leaned on it since my heart was pounding hard. This all happened because the of one person whom I didn't want to be here though he was here and to say I was scared would be an understatement.

You know why I'm scared...I'm scared to lose myself infront of his intimidating eyes. I'm scared to do something wrong. He's different I could see it but he definitely doesn't want to show it. And I don't want my well built walls to braek for him.

I should not let him affect me. GOD I have known him since 2 days only and look how dramatic I am.
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A/N I know it could be stupid but its my first story.