waste||moba

six||head

waking up monday morning was rough. joba kept dozing off after his alarm and wound up sleeping through half of first period. the same thing happened tuesday, but luckily wednesday and thursday he managed to get himself out of bed on time. friday he didn't even bother setting an alarm; he wasn't going to school. joba desperately needed a day just to himself. he had been taking care of his mom and sister all week and he needed to just spend some time with himself

he wound up waking at 8:00 on the dot; 2 hours later than usual. he debated going back to sleep but decided against it since he wanted to get coffee and take a walk downtown sometime later. he stayed in bed watching youtube videos and texting matt until around 10 when he took a brisk shower and dressed himself. matt was also staying home today, so they planned on hanging out after joba finished hanging downtown. he was excited to see matt again, the two had been getting along very well over the phone and the more they spoke, the more they realized how much they had in common. matt continued to flirt with joba, but the blond never paid any mind to it, he had no plans on following through with matt's request for joba to suck him off today while they were at matt's place. 

joba slid into his car and rummaged through his cds. he thumbed through the case he had before finding an old britney spears album from when his sister was younger. he popped it in and turned the volume up. womanizer  bumped through joba's speakers and he couldn't help but sing along, putting on his best nasally-high pitched voice to mimic britney's. 

he sang through nearly half of if u seek amy before arriving downtown. he parked his car in his usual spot next to the cafe and hopped out, humming the remainder of the song as he strode into the building. it was relatively empty with only a few older people situated in the corners reading either books or the paper. he ordered his house brew with only milk and left the building and began down the street. he passed a few middle-aged couples who held hands and spoke amongst themselves and he couldn't help but feel somewhat envious of the people in love. surely he was deserving of that too, and he couldn't be so ugly that he was completely off the table for some people to date? he thought about some girls he'd be interested in dating, but every single one of them was either already in a relationship or had no clue that joba existed. he had only dated one girl in all his 17 years of life and that was back in freshman year. kelsey otterman- he was convinced that he was in love with her and it absolutely broke his heart when she left him for someone else in the grade above theirs. he got over it eventually, but it took him 6 months of crying to romil and at least a dozen sad love songs.

as he browsed a bookstore, joba's phone dinged in his pocket. he scrambled to pull it out to put it on silent.

matt: when u comin im bored af 

joba rolled his eyes. he had only been out for an hour and he didn't want to leave just yet, but it would be rude to leave matt waiting,

joba: im leaving now. whats your address again?

-

he pulled into matt's driveway and walked up to his door. it swung open without joba even having an opportunity to knock. "finally!" matt groaned. 

"hi," joba murmured, jamming his hands into his pockets. "your house is cute." it was a small one story with a cozy interior. he wished his house felt as welcoming as matt's.

"thanks," matt smiled. he pulled his hood off and looked up at joba with big doe eyes. "wanna come to my room?"

"sure." joba shrugged and followed the shorter boy to the end of the hall. matt opened the door and let joba in. his room was painted dark blue and had dozens of band and movie posters on the wall. it was cluttered, but not messy. joba liked the vibe of it. "sorry it's so overwhelming." matt said.

"no, i like it." joba replied, still scanning the area. "mind if i take a seat?" he asked, gesturing to a beanbag on the floor.

"go ahead," matt chuckled. joba lowered himself to the ground and allowed his legs to stretch out across the floor. matt situated himself next to him and scratched the stubble on his chin. he looked joba up and down and leaned back on his elbows. "you look nice today." he said.

"thanks," joba smiled, "i wasn't too sure about the pants- i don't think they really match the shirt, but-" he was cut off by matt's lips meeting his in a deep kiss. he gasped and pulled away. matt's eyes were wild and his lips stammered to form words. "sorry," he finally croaked out.

"why'd you do that?" joba asked. he wasn't as disturbed as he thought he would've been, just shocked. 

"i-  i dunno. i'm sorry.." matt ran his fingers through his hair. joba's lips burned and he longed to feel matt's lips against his once more.

"do it again." he said. matt raised his eyebrows and leaned in, cupping joba's cheek with his palm. joba pushed his face forward and sealed the gap between the two. the kiss was gentle this time, and not as urgent and panicked as the last one. matt moved so that he was straddling joba and the blond's hands moved to matt's hips. joba broke the kiss and in a single exhale whispered, "kiss my neck again." matt's lips migrated down to joba's throat and he left a trail of stiff kissed along his neck. joba's fingers tangled themselves in matt's dark hair as the smaller boy fumbled with the hem of joba's shirt. the blond leaned his head to the side and matt found the spot he left a hickey on just a few days prior. joba's breath hitched as matt nipped and sucked on the piece of skin again.  "fuck," he exhaled, "that feels so nice," matt hummed a "mmhm," against joba's skin and the vibrations sent a shiver down his spine. he hated how much he was enjoying this. 

matt's small hands worked to pull joba's shirt off his body and once the t-shirt laid on the floor, matt sat up and ran his fingers along joba's bare chest. "you're so pretty," he whispered, kissing joba's breastplate. joba watched as matt's lips moved lower and lower until they reached the waistband of his pants. matt's lips disconnected from joba's body ad the smaller boy gave him a look that asked "can i take your pants off?" joba ran his fingers through his hair and shrugged. matt sat up and ran his hand along joba's thigh. "if you think me kissing your neck is good, imagine how this'll feel," matt murmured, his hands brushing joba's crotch. he exhaled a staggered breath and leaned back so he was staring at the ceiling. "i can't." he said finally. "i'm sorry, matt." 

"it's alright, joba." matt said softly as he laid down next to the taller boy. "i get it." 

"maybe another time, i- i don't know how to feel about doing this with a guy." joba explained.

"i won't force you to do anything, but having a guy suck you off feels so much better than having a girl suck you off; boys know where it feels the best." matt said.

"i've never even had a girl give me head."joba murmured.

"oh." 

"yeah."

"maybe have a girl suck your dick before i do, just so you can compare?" matt suggested with a wiggle of his brows.

"are you being serious?" joba laughed. matt nodded. "you'll see how much better i am." 

joba sighed and leaned his head against matt's. he enjoyed being around the other boy; it felt comfortable and conversation between them flowed naturally, but joba had never been that intimate with someone, nevermind someone who he wasn't even in a relationship with. a large part of him wanted to just fuck it and ask matt to give him head just to experience it, but he also wanted to experience his first blowjob with someone who he was in love with, not some attractive boy he met just under a week ago.