OS-mas with RoadTrip

9. Jack Duff (1)

Dear Jack,

we were in kindergarten together. You had always a smile on your face when you sang. We all listened to you. From the start I know I was in love with you.

Then we go to primary school and found new friend. You found in Brooklyn a new best friend and I was so happy for you. I also found a friend there. His name was Newt. I and Newt were close to each other. But not so close as you and Brook. You both were like brothers you never left anyone of you behind.
But as Brooklyn gets very ill you were very sad. You never let anyone get to you. You were not like you anymore....you were so quiet. I know that your friends tried to get to you. I also know that you had some problems with the teachers and students. Your fight with them because they talked bullshit about Brook.
I wanted to help you really. But Newt said you were dangerous and sadly I believed him.
I pushed my feelings for you away and started to like Newt. We were in the fourth class when I told Newt what I feel for him. Since then we were a couple.
The last year passed quickly away and we finally go to the secondary school.
Brooklyn was getting better. I found out that he had cancer. I felt so bad for you both.
Well, we both were in the same class again and sit next to each other. I didn't know how to feel about this because I pushed my feelings for you away. Newt was in the other class so he didn't know about anything. We talked to each other and became close friends.

But then was one day...the principal called you to him. You came back to the class with a lot of tears in your eyes. You told me that your parents had an car crash and died.
I talked with my parents about this and they decide to take care of you and your little sister.
We both visited Brook in the hospital and spend a lot of time in there. I spend more time with you and Brook as with Newt. So Newt and I had a fight. I never told you this because I know you would be sad. Well, he hit me once and I broke up with him.

The there was a time when Newt bullied me. I don't know why he did this but he did it. You and our friends stood up for me and I was so thankful for that.
Two weeks later you asked me out. It was so beautiful. Our second date was in the forest you showed me a beautiful place and then you kissed me on the lips. It was a short innocent kiss but it was our first kiss. From this moment we started to dating. The first person who know about us was Brooklyn. He was so happy for us.

Years passed away and we were done with the school. At our prom, we got the news that Brook wins against his cancer. You jumped up and down and hugged everyone in this room because you were so happy.
After the prom we visit him in the hospital. When we opened the door you run into his arms and pull him into a long hug! You both started to cry and I did as well.
You told me that you and Brook made a promise. When he wins against cancer you both will start a boy band and actually, this happened. You found a manager and build a boy band that called "RoadTrip" it took two years to find the members for the band but you make it.
Now all of them are like big brothers to me. I love them so much. Your band grows and also your fandom. They know about us and support us.

Another year of action passed away and the you asked me this one question. We go into the forest to our special place. You've made it so special. Probably the boys helped you and yeah you asked me if I wanna marry you. Of course, I said yes.
We had a big fight and were about to broke up. But the boys get us together somehow.
Well, then it just happened. I found out that I'm pregnant. First I was so scared because I thought you didn't want the child because we were to young to have a child. I talked with Brooklyn about this. He gave me the courage to tell you about the pregnancy. You were so happy. We moved with the boys into a big house and the we told the roadies about the pregnancy. They were so happy for us. After another hard six month our twins were here, Nick and Alana.

After a month we finally married. Everything was perfect and now I'm pregnant with our third. I know I'm not gonna survive this birth. The doctor told me after the twins birth I never can give birth to another child. But I know we both wanted three children so I never told you anything about this.

Now I'm by your parents. I'm so proud to call you my husband Jack. You made me to a better person. I'm glad to had you in my life.
Please promise me one thing. Be a good daddy for the children. Protect them with your live. They need a dad like you.
I love you so much.

Your wife Cira...

I cried I cried a lot. Cira passed away by giving the birth to our third child. She left me this letter.
Nick and Alana are now five years old. I don't now how to tell them that her mommy isn't her anymore.

I just laying in my bed with the kids. Tow weeks passed away and we haven't done anything productive. The boys cared about them because I wasn't able to do anything.
Somehow I told them about Cira. Of course, they cried a lot and the boys had to calm them down. But I don't know if they understand it. I mean, they are only five years old.
I take a break from social media. Of course, the roadies are worried. But I need some time for myself and my kids. The twins look like Cira so they remind me of her. But it's okay. I'm not crying anymore. I have to be strong for my little family.