OS-mas with RoadTrip

10. Jack Duff (2)

Tomorrow is one of those days when I just want to be in my room. But I can't.
Tomorrow is my son birthday also the days of my wife's death.
Ten years after her death passed away and so many things happened. In this ten years, our band "RoadTrip" broke up. But we are still friends. The kids, Brook and I moved into another house. Yes, Brook, the kids and I are still living together. Brook has also a girlfriend. Her name is Mia and she is also living with us. Well, Brook starts his solo carrier and I also did. But for a few month, I took a break from everything.
Andy works as a Music producer and Rye is still active on YouTube. Mikey decides to work with kids and Teenagers.
Well, as I have already said tomorrow is Miles birthday. Miles will be ten tomorrow.
I'm really proud of this little kid. He grows up so fast. He is smart and a lovely guy. Like his mother...
The twins are now fifteen years old.
Alana is an open-minded girl. She is strong and always there for her friends.
Nick is a quiet boy and sometimes shy. But he loves his sister and is always there to protect his sister.
I'm so proud of my babies. If Circa were here...

"Jack!" I hear Brook yelling from his and Mia's room. I go to him. "Yeah? What's up, mate?" "I invite the boys to hope you don't mind it. I'm sure Miles would be glad to see them again." "It's okay...as long as he is happy..." I said a bit sad. I don't now why I suddenly become so emotional. "Hey...is everything alright?" he asks me worriedly. "No..." then it just happened. I fall into his arms and cry. "Hey....hey...hey...Jack, it is alright." he said and tries to calm me down. "No...I miss her Brook...I miss her so much." "I miss her too buddy. I know this is hard for you...but you have to be strong. For her and for your kids..." "But it is so hard..." "We are here for you.." "I know..." "Daddy?" I hear a quiet voice behind me. "Hey, Miles..." Brook answer. "Is he okay?" Mikes asks. I pull Brook a bit away and turn around to look a t Miles. He sees my swollen red eyes and pulls me into a hug. "I'm so sorry..." he says while he hugs me. I pull him a bit away and kneel in front of him. "For what buddy?" "Because mommy isn't here anymore..." he said with tears in his eyes. "Hey...it isn't your fault that she is i n the heaven now. We wanted you...it was our own fault. Please don't give yourself the fault." "But because of me, you are sad..." "I'm sorry about that...but I miss her so much." "Can you tell me something about her, please?" "Of course." We both sit down on Brook's and Mia's bed.
"Your mother was a beautiful woman. She was strong like your sister and carrying like your brother. But she was also lovely like you. When she laughed, she looked so beautiful. She never lost her smile. She was the first one who believed in us when we started the band. Of course we both had also hard times but we managed it somehow. I'm proud to call her my wife..." "Wow...she was an awesome woman." "Yes, she was. I love her so much. She watches over us."
After we talked Miles and I go downstairs and decorate the house for tomorrow.

Well, it is early in the morning and everything is prepared.
As I already said it is early in the morning and I'm awake. This is not typical for me but I didn't sleep very well.
I'm in the kitchen and make breakfast for everyone. After a half hour, Nick comes into the kitchen. "Good morning Dad." "Morning buddy. Did you sleep well?" "Yeah...and you?" "Not so good but it's okay I can live with that." "Are you sure?" "Yeah...everything is okay."

He helps me with the breakfast and the we wake everyone up except for Miles. When they were finally awake we go into Miles room and wake him up with singing Happy Birthday.
We all give him a hug and go into the kitchen to eat our breakfast. We talk and laugh together. I feel so good. So free...
Then there was time for his presents. This year I decided to give him something special. I will give him a watch. It was Cira's watch. She has always worn this watch.
When I give him his present he looks at me with big eyes. He opens the present and took the watch out. "This was the watch of your mother.." I said.  He gets tears in his eyes and pulls me into a long hug. "Thank you so much."
I know he is just ten years old but he is mature than the others in his age. He understands so many thing and I'm proud to be his father.

His party was awesome. The boys, my sister and also Cira's parents were her. It was so good to see them again. We talked to each other, we danced together and also sang together. Like old times. I could distract myself and enjoy the life for the first time again. After they were gone the kids and I visit there mommy on the graveyard. They all wrote a letter for her. We do this every year on her birthday and on Miles.
I don't know what they are write in there letters. But I think they write her a beautiful letter. I'm glad to have this family...