I didn't go home immediately. It would've been too easy for Ash to find me. Instead, I ran to Luke's house, hoping to find Lois and Luke. She had become an amazing friend to me while they were in Australia. I found Luke, Lois, Calum, Sav, Mikey, and Bella all in Luke's kitchen. I explained to them all what had happened.
"Ashton has actually been getting a lot of hate, too" Michael said "Believe it or not, I think he's gotten the most hate out of all of us...well maybe not. People favorite Ash and Lukey because.." he changed his voice to a white girl tone. "'Because hotties!1!1' I think Lois, you, and I get the most hate, actually. People think I look like I rat. But in reality, I know I'm just too punk rock for them... Actually, forget about Ash having the most hate." He smiled. If he was affected at all by the hate, he didn't show it. I looked over at Cal and Luke, who wrre rolling their eyes and giggling.
Lois spoke up. "Yeah and I know they probably only hate me because I have a beautiful boyfriend and they don't." She laughed. "I know I'm not a worthless piece of shit like some people might say...but this is still about how he treated you, right?" She finished, bringing my attention back to the situation. I nodded.
Calum started speaking in his angelic voice. "I think that what Ashton didn't get is that you really did feel hurt by the hate. He was more focused on the fact that you read the comments so the hate factor was overlooked."
Luke finally spoke up. "And also , Ashton is really scared and worried because of the tour. He has terrible stage fright. I mean, we all have stage fright but his is by far the worst. And he's nervous about you finding another guy who you like more than him. He's afraid of losing you. You mean so much to him. He says you're different than everyone else."
"But why did he even-" I started.
"He couldn't turn down the offer of a tour. We don't make enough money to just sit and make YouTube covers. Plus, he needs the money. ((This is sorta an AU and sorta not as in some of the things happened like the tour)) Has he told you about his dad yet?" I shook my head no. "Well he-"
At that moment, a door slammed. We all looked at each other. I guess I might have looked partially scared because Mikey moved over and gave me a small hug. He's so cute and kind. I was so lucky to have him as a friend. ((#stuckinthefriendzoneagainandagain))
In came the culprit of the slammed door - Ash. I didn't even know what to say or if I even liked him even liked him anymore. They said I meant a lot to him but that didn't mean that he meant a lot to me.
"Look who finally decided to show up..." I said. I wanted to hear an apology and explanation. His bitchy behavior would NOT be excused because his friend explained for him. And maybe I wanted payback..
Ashton replied, "Em, can I ermmm...Luke, can Emma and I go into your bedroom?" Luks nodded his head while giggling with Calum and Michael. "Shut up! I didn't mean it that way! Em, would you like to talk in Luke's bedroom?"
"Whatever," I told him, rather coldly. I felt so bad. I just wanted to hug and kiss him and tell him I loved him. But I couldn't seem desperate. Plus, he needed payback for what he said earlier. Speaking of pay, what does Luke mean about Ash's father?
We walked into his bedroom. When we sat down, Ashton started talking. "I'm sorry, hun. It wasn't right of me to make a remark like that. I should have been more conscious and more aware of your feelings. It was unresponsible-"
"Yeah, you should feel sorry! I'll have you know that I'm 0 days clean now, thank you very much! That was a very jerk move-"
"I know and-"
"And nothing!"
"Look. Em, I'm sorry you're 0 days clean. I'm sorry I was a bitch. I'm sorry that you eben got hate. But you are acting terrible. You wouldn't let me finish explaining myself. You didn't even except the apology! You only interruptedme and started being a- a- a- a douche! This isn't the girl who stole my heart, who I fell in love with. If you find that girl, tell her I'm looking for her. I'm sorry but goodbye Emma. We're done.
