The Human Wolf

Six

I sat on my bedroom window seel, looking out at the night sky wondering what I had to do to not be paired with the twins. I mean hundreds of she-wolves would be proud and happy to be paired with them. However, I was not one of them. I was human, and I couldn't be mate much less a Luna of a strong pack.

I turned my head and looked at my bed, the pair of them were sitting there. Leon was on the phone, having a conversation with his father who was on the other side of the castle. Barrett was smiling and watching me. I held my knees closed to my chest as I turned my head back to the night sky. It was a beautiful sight to see and I would never forget it.

"Excuse me, Nyla?" Barrett came over to the window seal and sat opposite me.

"What would you like Alpha Barrett?" I ask, trying to ignore his presence and keep my focus on the night sky.

"Please, Ny. You don't need to be formal around us." He reaches out and tries to grab one of my hands.

"Barrett the Bear it is." I smile, trying to hide the laughter I was holding in. Barrett grabs one of my hands and I stop. My eyes focus on the tantalising sensation happening with the mere touch of Barrett. I immediately pull away out of fear this was actually true and not some horrible nightmare.

"Ny?" Barrett looks at me.

"I can't. I'm sorry. I'm not your mate nor his either." I shake my head wanting none of this to be true. But the sad thing was; it was all true.

"Ny, please don't fight it."

"Stop calling me Ny." I say with a fuss. I wasn't sure why it bothered me too much, but the truth was Conri called me Ny more times than not and it was a constant reminder that I would never be his. I was never going to be his mate and he wasn't never going to be mine because I was paired with his cousins. It all seemed strange to me.

"I'm sorry Nyla." Barrett apologises. It was a sincere one at that too. It was something I had never heard him, or Leon ever says to me. Three little words that had a big meaning to my childhood. "I'm sorry we aren't Conri, neither of us will ever be him."

"What makes you think Conri and I would ever be together in the first place? If we were together it would have been three years ago at his 18th, but that didn't happen. Then we both waited until I turned 18 but still nothing. We were never going to end up together."

"Yeah, but you love him, Nyla. You don't love me or Leon. Do you know how that makes us both feel? That you love another man."

"I'm human, Barrett. I can't help but feel things that are different than feelings of a wolf. Us humans function different than wolves. I'm not bound to fate or destiny or two one person my whole life. Do you know how strange that concept feels to me some days? No, you don't, because you aren't me."

"Will the pair of you shut it!" Leon growls. "Nyla, you need to understand that without you, we can't live the same lives."

"You could have anyone else, but somehow you two waited until now to tell me? Anyone else, just anyone but me. I don't want this, none of this." I point out. I was beyond confused and annoyed at the situation I was put into.

Leon walks over and grabs a hand of mine, Barrett takes the other and I have no idea where to look. "Can you please just try and work things out with us?" Barrett whispers, kissing my palm very gently.

"Please Nyla?" Leon brings the hand he has towards his face and rests it on his cheek. I pull my hands away slowly and adjust in my window seal, giving room to Leon for him to sit down.

With both boys beside me, I sat in the middle. My knees brought to my chest and my hands rested on top of them. I stared at my hands wondering if this is what I wanted. It wasn't what I had much less planned. I figured that with time I would have moved into the human world and found someone to be with, but this is something that I never foreshadowed.