Driven (BIGBANG)

BigBang (Driven)

Chapter 15: A Certain Promise

POV: Seungri

I may be dancing, but I've kept my eye on the table. I've only drank a few glasses - it's enough to get Taeyang drunk but I drink too often for that. My eyes follow Ji as he weaves through the crowd. I barely noticed that he left the table, the amount of people in here being insane and all.

"Hey," he says when he finally gets over to us. He seems uncomfortable on the dance floor, even though it's obvious to everyone he's a good dancer. Maybe not as good as Taeyang, but.....

"Heey man," Taeyang turns around, moving away from the girl he was dancing with. He puts a hand on his shoulder and sways it slightly. "We should dance."

"Yeah sure." Ji seems slightly off and I glance over to the table. Dae and TOP idle over there, neither of them night owls much. I see TOP stand up, and straighten out his clothes and I laugh a little at the thought of his stiff limbs attempting to keep a beat. Dae stands up too, almost like he's trying to not get left by TOP.

Ooh did Dae manage to convince TOP to get out on the floor and dance with his boyfriend?

Yet, they turn away from the floor and fluidly escape through the door. I consider going after them, to tell them to come back to make Taeyang happy. But when I look over to him showing Ji how to 'accurately' dance, I think he's satisfied with his current company. Soon I rush back over to our table for a quick drink and to cool off. This doesn't last long, because a beautiful short haired chick dragged me back out there. For who knows how long, I get lost in keep time with her. I feel buzzed and even though it's way too warm in here, it's comfortable. It feels like an average night out, not the weekend before Taeyang would be leaving for the army. We joked some, the girl and I. Her name was Mia, and she was coming here as a college transfer. Then she tells me that all that she listens to is BigBang and I kind of groan a little. I love our fans, but we have to be careful with them - if we dated them, and it went wrong, things could get out of hand.

Still, I stay for a while dancing with her. She's really attractive, and a good dancer, so she makes me look better. I notice Ji and Taeyang dancing next to each other. I give a wiry grin to myself; they're so good at dancing it's intimidating the girls dancing near them. After a while, my feet get tired and my body feels a little sick so I tell the girl that I had a good time, but I need to go home. I squeeze past people to where the two others are.

"Hey, I'm going to head out!" I yell at Taeyang, the music blaring around us. He nods like he understands, but then I don't know if he really has anything at the moment (he's not good with drinking). I push around the masses to get near the door and stumble out into the cool air. I suck some in, enjoying the way it makes me clear headed, before hailing a cab. Because we were all going to the club to party with Taeyang, we decided unanimously to not chose a DD. I soon flag one down, and crack the window in the back as I ride back to the dorm.

I wonder what TOP And Dae are up to...

Sometimes, I think they're really dense. It's obvious to me they like each other, and it may be to the other members as well - but well, not many people are as okay with boy love as I am and I'm not about to be the cause of them getting kicked out. There was always one rule with co-ed groups: no relationships. And though we weren't exactly co-ed (even if Dae can be quite the girl), I don't think that changed the rule. I actually thinks it makes it stricter. Still, BigBang is my life and I would rather keep it than attempting to make those two realize their feelings.

This sudden feeling of selfishness washes over me and makes me swallow some of the guilt that comes with. If they wanted to be together, or if they wanted to tell each other how they felt, they already would have. That's right. So I don't see any point of trying something that won't work anyway to ruin something good.

Even this rationalizing doesn't take the guilt fully away from me (it never does), and I make a deal with myself. If Dae and TOP still refuse to see each other when BigBang, I'll step in. This promise quells my queasiness slightly and I notice we've pulled up to my building. I pull out my wallet, and pay the man. "Thank you," I say simply, before stepping out.

I shiver, the frosty air no longer relaxing but uncomfortably cold. I pull my loose T-shirt closer into me, and hurry up to the dorm. "Hey, I'm home." I call out when I get in. There's no response.

Huh?

I peek into me and Dae's room, hoping to see him bopping around in there with headphones on. But he isn't... They did come home, right? I feel slightly worried for their safety, as I move quickly across the hall to throw open Taeyang's door - and there the two are. I almost scold them, until I notice they're sleeping. Ah, aren't my intellect a little down for the night? I smile as I look down at Dae being wrapped up in TOP. Both are still fully clothed and it looks like it could have been a drunk accident, but I don't recall Dae drinking much. Plus, even if it wasn't an accident, it could be explained away as platonic - like when Ji used to smother me to sleep. Though I know and both of them know, I wouldn't dare say a word about this encounter and they probably wouldn't talk about it either to each other.

I sigh as I pull myself off the doorframe. I saunter towards the bathroom. They may wake up tomorrow smelling terrible, but I sure as hell won't. In the back of my mind, even as I hurry to take care of myself, my promise of taking care of them still rings true.