The Two of Us

Chapter 6: Moments (Luna's POV)

Nothing may have happened well in my life but he would always be my source of light. My savior. My sun.   

When I opened my eyes, I was on dark water with the sun shining above. I could feel my body becoming heavy as I was slowly descending from the surface. I tried to reach for the sun, but I was drawn away from it; falling onto the depths and barely breathing.

Help. Is there anybody out there? I struggled as I look for someone to help me.

I need to survive. I need to tell Kim Seok Jin about something important.

I felt like I was suspended in the middle of the ocean. Darkness slowly enveloped me.    

(Flashback)

It was a Friday night and I was on my way home from work. I was walking under the bright city lights of Orchard Road. Lost in my deep thought.

It has been weeks since I last saw Jin. He never came home after the confession he made to me. How is he? Is he eating on time? I had decided not to call or text him. My way of respecting his feelings. However deep within me... I miss him. I miss him a lot. I know he is heartbroken, but I can never give him false hopes. Using him will never help me to get over with Yoongi.

At that very moment, it hit me. Why did I never fall for him? I wondered. We have been together for more than three years under the same roof but why it never sparked anything. Flash of thoughts suddenly washed over me. The moments that Jin and I shared.

That time when I was sick and I had a high fever, he didn't go to work and he took care of me. When I was having a nightmare and I was crying during my sleep, he slept beside me and hold me tight to make sure I was alright. When I didn't notice that I had my monthly period, and I got my skirt stained, he rushed to my office and brought me a change of clothes including undies and pads. I knew he was embarrassed but he still did it, for my sake. That I moment, I knew he loves me genuinely. He cooked food for me and fed me. He made sure I eat healthily. He treated me as if I am his girl, or maybe more than that. Every year, he wrote letters on my birthday and throw a surprise party for me. There was a time when we fought 'cause I got into a traffic jam and I wasn't able to inform him as my phone died. He was anxious as he thought I got into an accident. We fought like a 'married couple' that day. I smiled. Funny that I was starting to realize this.

The one thing I would never forget is that he saved me from my own miserableness. Saved me when I tried to kill myself a couple of times by drowning myself. Stopped me when I self-harmed. He was always there for me when I only thought about myself. What a selfish brat am I. I thought that no one would be sad if I was gone...for good.

As if on cue, it started raining. I didn't bother to bring out my umbrella or run to seek shelter. Instead, I continued walking thinking about him. Thinking about how he always tries to appease my anger by hugging me, kissing my head, or doing both. Thinking about how he helped me through it all, in my ups-and-downs. I appreciate those little things he did for me.

I suddenly stopped out of nowhere. Do I only appreciate Jin? On the other hand, maybe little by little, I am falling for him? Should I close the door and quit waiting for someone? Moreover, should I start looking the other way? Should I give him a chance? Could it be that...

When I turned and looked at my right side, a white light blinded my vision. The next thing I knew, I was laying on the cold cement and a sticky fluid was flowing out from my head. I was breathing heavily and before I totally lost my consciousness, someone screamed to call an ambulance. "Jin!" I called out his name as I tried to reach for the light.

Am I too late?

Then there was total darkness.

(End of Flashback)