Everything under the galaxy

The feels down deep inside

I don't hate you
It not that I don't care about you
That not why I wanted to be a blob
My heart and my head don't know what to make of all of this
One minute I am like yes
Another I am like no
I might be thinking about this too much.
But what can I do
You're a good person for sure
Everyone around me screaming
Telling me what to do
It like I am drowning in other opinions
I know they want the best for me
For you
I just need five seconds alone
To think
To process all of this
It not that I don't care about their opinions
Of course, I do they can be helpful
It like a tug of war
One side wants me to say yes
Another side wants me to say no
People in the middle want what's best
This is all so confusing
You're a good guy
I can see all the good in you
I know they all mean the best
I know they do
I don't want to hurt you
But I don't want to do what I feel wrong
Not loving you but being with you would hurt more
But loving you and not being with you would hurt too.
Not sure what I am thinking
Some days it like I decode a code
Or bomb
If you know what I mean
Some days I think I almost found the answer
The gold in the ground
Before I know it
It gets swept up underneath me
Not be to see for a while
Not trying to hurt anyone
I am trying to win the tug war game
To find the gold in the ground
And never lose it again
I don't want to do the wrong thing
I don't want to make the wrong choice
I might be thinking too much about this too much
But what can I do
This is a big choice to make
It bigger than the size of the earth
Ok maybe not
But it sure feels like it
You wonder how it can be so hard
I know you do
Why I can't tell you already
I have no clue
Why I can't say it
Why it has to be this hard
Why I think about things for years
Sometimes to long
And other things too short
I guess he uses it so important
I don't want to miss it up
I want to do right
I know you're a good guy
I know you want the best
I guess I am thinking about this too much
Some would say don't listen to others
That easier than say the done
I just don't want to hurt you
Do the wrong thing
I just want to do what the best
What right
I trying to listen to my own heart
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