My Long Lost Bad Boy

Painful Decision

"I'm sorry Alex, i can't accept the fact that you still love another girl when you're with me" i shrugged "I'm too in love with you, so i don't want you to be someone else's.. I only want you to be mine, and yet you keep on being with other girls"

"..That.." he lowered his head and put his hand down.

He didn't deny it. He really does love Carla. The tears were falling again, and i didn't stop them. I was so broken.

"It's true huh?" i smiled "It's okay, i understand you. I'm not going to be greedy like those girls so.. I'm wishing for your happiness Alex. Even though it's not me, but please, be happy" i gave him a big grin which made him a bit surprised.

"W-What do you mean..?" his sweats were running trough his neck

"Let's.." i sighed "Break up"

I wiped my tears away and averted my gaze at him. I glanced at him and saw his face was totally messed up. His eyes were lost in deep thoughts and he left his mouth open. He slightly took a step back and lowered down his head.

He took my hand and looped his hand on mine.

"I'm sorry" he kissed my hand several times "I really am" his voice was shaking. I somehow felt like i wanna cry too.

"I'm fine, don't worry bout me"

"But i never wanted to break up with you" he stared right at my eyes and touched my hair "I really love you, i really do"

"You love Carla" i said it with sort of insisting tone "Don't deny it, i knew already"

I thought he's gonna say something else but i was a bit taken with his reaction. He released his hand from mine and gave me a very very serious look.

"Fine. Think bout it that way. Do what you want, you never cared anyway" he rubbed his neck and walked away ,left me completely frozen.

Soon as he leave, i cried as loud as i could.I've broken up with him. I've broken up with Alex. I'm no longer Lamford's badboy's girl. I'm no longer his love. He won't be here with me anymore, he won't kiss me or hug me again. We won't be laughing and giggling over our stupid selves again. He won't call my name again. Not anymore.

My knees went numb and i sat at the corner of Reece's house. No one noticed me. I was alone, completely alone. Starting from this day on, no one would care about me anymore. I'll be all alone. Even Alex won't care even a damn thing about me anymore, i'm no longer dating him. I cried again over and over. I did regret i asked him to break up, but i knew i did the right thing. It was the best to let him go if he doesn't love me right? Right? I wiped all my tears away and stood up. I fixed my make up and hair so that i wouldn't look like i was crying.

I sobbed and went back to the crowds. I saw Alex was having the time of his life with bunch of his friends, including Reece and Jace. He didn't even look like he cared about our break up. I stared at him for a moment but then i walked away and pulled Kelly to my side.

"H-Hey!" she yelled in surprise "Don't pull me so suddenly! You surprised me!" she pouted, and i gave her a small smile.

"Kelly, can we go home? I don't feel too well" i pleaded "If you still wanna have fun, i'll go home myself"

"Uh.. Are you sick?" she yelled because the music was too loud

"S-sort of" i yelled back "Well see you at school" i winked and waved her goodbye which she immediately responded.

I went in my car and turned it on. I looked in the mirror and my eyes were so swollen. I cried too much.

Well, who cares anyway. At least, this way i wouldn't have any problems right? I'm so done with love, i'm not falling for it ever again. I put on my seatbelt and started to drive off.