You looked me in the eyes
And told me you loved me
"But when?" I wanted to ask
"Because all you've ever seen
Is the rational side of me
The cute girl
Who nods yes to everything
The girl
Who does her homework
And answers in class
The girl
Whom the smile
Never leaves her face.
You haven't seen
The darkness that consumes me
The rage
That takes over me
You haven't seen the demons
Who are a part of me now
You haven't looked into
My broken soul
That cries for help
Everyday
You haven't seen the blood
Pouring out of
Every part of my body
Because you have no idea
How much
I want to hurt my self
How much
I enjoy the pleasure
Of the pain
How much
I wanna rip
The skin off my face
Jump off my body.
I'm a broken mess
That will only
Make you fear me
And run away."
But the words
Never leave my mouth
So I just
Nod.
