The Tigress, The Witch, and The Broken One

Day 17: Wellbeing

December 18, 2018

It's not long before Christmas. I don't know what I want that's practically for me. I had no choice but to get a new phone, and my Amazon is low. What I was going for for my gift is a card game that I have yet to hear of. A card game that will get me out of the shackles of konami's Yu-Gi-Oh card game. It shockingly enough still burns that the Tigress gotten only the reaper of a gift. The question is will he accept it? He will on the count that he doesn't have to buy it himself. The Witch is having food shortages again due to her druggy Uncle and still she is getting blamed for it. In fairness, I wish she would capture him and show it to her grandmother. Hopefully she won't be so lenient when it's this serious. Luckily my grandma was complaining about out freezer being full, I'd say this would help the both of us. 

The Rogue and Sportsman, even the Dragoness is saying that I should burn my bridges with them both. So far I think I have. It just greatly concerns me on what they're doing now. I'm ignoring it as best I could, as well as keeping myself occupied. Doing these entries are actually helping improve my writing capabilities. I may be able to have my old talents back sharper than ever. Writing I can do pretty well. Drawing? Well, I need to break the habit of doing step by step and just draw with my natural skill without it. It's a tough path, wish I could meet someone who has that issue along with me.  Maybe the comic book artist I met could help. Though, I would I have to visit the Tigress and the Hero in order to meet with him. 

This will be frustrating, as well as challenging. Once I continue to sever ties, it'll be like as if we've never gotten to know each other. There's no way she would come out to just see me anyway. The Hero may notice it and get onto her. She's already damaged me enough, let's hope the damage hits her twice as hard. 

The fairy and I nearly had a decent conversation, however she still fails to give me encouragement about my past creations and advice should I ever continue them. I don't know why she does that. She continuously appears to be just like the Shadow, only not as worse. I know if I tell her that it annoys and upsets me when I explain the past creations, she may go through an anxiety attack. I can't have that on my conscious like the others. Which is why I'm doing my best to distance myself. The Rogue says I shouldn't, but it seems for the best so that I can recover and train my creativity. One day I'll go up that store, only as a customer, if she wants me to stay as a friend, well, she has to prove it. 

All of this is for the best, I can already feel that I'm digging my own grave. Being alone with my thoughts and venting out this frustration like this seems to help. How long though? Who'll notice? I can't say for sure, but I know that this will be for the best. I can tell if I continue to work hard, practice endlessly and clear my mind, I'll be a lot more open and confident. It just takes time.