BTS 8th Member?// BTS FF✓ #Wattys2019

Chapter 5

Y/N's POV

After talking to BTS last week, I think about it all over again. I don't get why I am always worried about everything but I guess that is who I am.

Today they will be having their comeback stage and pdnim wants me to be there backstage and watch their comeback. I don't know how to feel right now. After the talk with them, it is getting more awkward between Jungkook and I. We rarely talk now when we meet. We don't even spare a glance to each other.

I am backstage with them and looking at them tease each other while getting their makeup and hair done. It is chaotic as usual. It is not like I am not used to it but when they are backstage they are just more hyper. I am just sitting at the sofa alone scrolling through my Instagram feed and twitter feed. Mostly it is about me joining BTS and ARMYs are wondering who am I since pdnim didn't reveal who yet. There are also posts from my fan account about my upcoming drama that I filmed a few months ago as well as photos of behind the scene of that drama. I am just glad that there are people supporting me and loving my acting.

"Y/N what are you looking at?" Taehyung Oppa suddenly asks when he sat down beside me.

"Oh it is nothing just social media"

"We are performing soon so make sure to watch us on the screen okay," he said enthusiastically. Taehyung Oppa is always hyper and full of energy together with J-Hope Oppa.

"Boys it is your turn to perform" their manager shouted from the door and they scrambled out of the room. Taehyung muttered 'Make sure to watch it' to me and I nodded. A few minutes later they are on stage performing.

"That high note from Jimin and Jungkook Oppa is great. How can they even harmonies when singing a high note?" I said my thoughts out loud. I am really amazed by them. Am I really going to be part of them soon? 

"Did you watch us?" Taehyung Oppa asked a loud from the door frame as soon as they came back. They are all sweating so much. I couldn't take my eyes off them in that hairstyle. Jin Oppa really looks like a high school guy although he is already 26.
(A/N: Imagine they debut just recently and not in 2013 alright hehe)

"Yup and you guys are amazing" I complimented but still staring straight at them and not blinking my eyes even once. Why must they be so hot?

When I am daydreaming, someone pulls my hand making me stand up and he drags me out of the room. I am still not able to recognise who it is since they all look similar from the back due to their hairstyles. I quietly wince at the pain I am enduring. He is grabbing my wrist too tightly that I am pretty sure it is so red right now. He stops at a quiet corner and releases my wrist. I rub my wrist to soothe the pain and legit it is blood red right now from the grip. Seriously whoever this is I won't forget him for doing that to my poor wrist. 

"Did you have fun staring at Jin Hyung?" He asks in a cold tone still not turning to my direction. I still can't take any guess since all of them call Jin, Hyung and from there I also know that it is not Jin Oppa. 

"What do you mean?" I question innocently. To be honest I am innocent and why is he even questioning that. Who is he to even question me that? I mean he is not my boyfriend or something so why is he asking that in a cold and somewhat jealous tone. 

"JUST FREAKING ANSWER ME" he turns and it was Jungkook Oppa. I flinched from his loud voice. This angry side of him is really scary. 

"I wasn't staring at Jin Oppa..." I reply. My voice is low and soft. There is a moment of silence but I broke it.

"Why are you so angry?" I build up my courage to ask him that even though I am shivering from fear. He has a sweet face but when he is angry it is as though that shy side of him never exist. 

"I don't know Y/N. Why not you tell me why?" Seriously what is wrong with this boy. He is angry and he doesn't know why but expect me to know. I can't take this shit. 

"How should I know Oppa. You are the one who is angry and you expect me to know?" I question him back. At this rate, both of us can get into an argument but I don't want to have an argument with him. Not when we are both already awkward with each other and also me debuting with them in a month time. I don't know why in a month time although they just have a comeback today but that is pdnim's decision. I don't want to have an argument with him is also because I have to work with him in the music video filming next week. He stayed quiet but I can't hold in my anger anymore and walk off only to be stopped by him. He literally just grab the same wrist that he grabs a few moments ago. I wince at the pain but not quietly since it is freaking painful right now that he is gripping it even harder. 

"I'm sorry Y/N, I do know why I am like this but I can't say it to you. Sorry I hurt you too. Sorry that I made you angry too. Sorry for everything" he looks down. His shy side is back. His grip has lightened but he is still holding on to it as though he doesn't want me to leave. 

"Why can't you tell me?" I somewhat have a feeling of what the reason is but I need answers to confirm it. 

"Y/N, I know I am not supposed to do this but I can't stop myself. It might put our future at risk but I don't care. I need to let it out. I love you Y/N-ah. I can't stop this feeling no matter what I do. I got jealous earlier when you were staring at Jin Hyung and the rest and I got angry about it. Pdnim has already warned us about this but what can I do to stop this feeling? Every time I am around you my stomach is full of butterflies and when you talk to my members, I am jealous. We got awkward after Jimin Hyung spill out the truth but that was because I want to forget this feeling I have for you. I know this is a sudden confession but I really do sincerely love you. Will you be mine?" he let out his feelings and I am in utter shock. I didn't expect him to confess to me and also he is still my bias from BTS. Who wouldn't be in shock when their bias or soon to be band member confess and ask them to be his right? I don't know what to answer him. Maybe I do love him too but if I accept that would mean my future, as well as his future, would be at risk. 

"I don't know Oppa. I do love you but I don't know if it is more than a bias or not. Also, I don't want to ruin your career. I don't mind ruining mine but you just debuted a few months ago. I really do-" 

"Y/N, we could keep it a secret to the rest and also pdnim and we could reveal to them when the time is right. Please Y/N...I really love you and I can't imagine my life without you being mine" I was cut off by him begging me. 

"I guess we could try that...but-" 

"Thank you Y/N! I love you so much" I was once again cut off. 

"Oppa, what if they find out?"

"I don't care if my hyungs find out since I can trust them to keep it a secret. So...does this mean you are mine?" I nodded slightly blushing. I guess it is fine as long as we keep it a secret.

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Author's Note: 

Sorry for the very long chapter hehe. Hope you guys will enjoy it! 

Pardon my grammatical and typo errors.