Mute(Jerrie)

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Perrie's POV(part 2)

"You can go out there but after you get your food you must come back."Abigail,another nurse,instructed.I nodded and went to the cafeteria to grab some snacks from the vending machine.I wished I could get some proper food but since I can't speak that wasn't possible.The nurses would give me some food from time to time but that happened very rarely.

I walked somewhere near the wall so people wouldn't notice me and when I turned around i felt something hitting my body.I looked up and saw a petite brunette standing in front of me."Ouch!"She whined rubbing her shoulder.How I wished I could apologize for not looking where I was walking towards.

"I'm sorry for that"She shook her head and said.All I could do was nod my head and walk away.I returned into my room but all day long all I had in mind was that brunette and the fact that I left her there without even being able at least to say sorry back.

The next day I was in my bed,reading a book,deep in my thoughts about the action.Out of the blue I heard someone clearing their throat and I dropped the book and jumped a bit at the unexpected noise.

"Hey hey,easy it's okay."The same brunette I ran into the day before whispered calmly trying to get closer to me.Something in me was telling me not to trust her,to keep the distance.In fact,I started shaking and tears were triggering to fall from my eyes.

"Are you scared of me?"I nodded.The truth was that I was scared of anyone and everyone,I didn't trust anybody anymore doesn't matter how much I wished I could befriend someone that seemed to be as nice as the brunette.

Later on she introduced herself as Jade.She was waiting for something which I assumed was me introducing myself.I only titled my head dumbly and she got it."Oh right.Your name is Perrie.Nice to meet you."She smiled.

Without any other gesture I brought my knees to my chest and wrapped my arms around them,looking away.I wanted to look at Jade,give her a smile,trust her.But I simply couldn't.All these years spent in the mental hospital taught me one important thing:to not trust anyone.I used to trust every person who smiled at me and I got hurt multiple times.Until I decided to shut myself in and lock everyone else out of my life.

One day I was reading again on my bed when I heard commotion on the other side of the door.I wanted to see what was going on but I knew the nurses probably had locked the door.They saw me as a threat.A few moments later someone broke in and it was no one else than Jade herself.I wanted to show her how happy I was to see her.She was the only person I had seen in days,the nurses wouldn't allow me to spend time with anyone else.But I knew that both of us were going to bear the consequences if she didn't go right then.

I shut my book close and pointed to the door.I wanted her out of my room before some nurse would notice but it seemed like she didn't get it.

"Hey I thought we were friends."

That's why I'm making you leave right now,you fool!

I was mentally slapping her but somehow felt good
that she was taking chances to spend some time with me.For once in a long time I felt cared for.I decided to eventually trust her and confide in her so bitting my lip anxiously I rolled up my sleeve and revealed syringe traces around my veins.

Jade gasped and asked me whether the nurses did it to me.All I could do was nod when Jesy Nelson barged in saying something about nurses coming.She pulled Jade out of the room in no time and I let out a sigh of relief.

Soon enough a nurse came into my room.She found me in my old position,on the rusty bed,reading an old book.She didn't say anything she just walked straight to my bed and grabbed me by the wrist.She gave me a doze and left when I fell asleep.

Knowing the drill,A few days after I went to the cafeteria to pick up some snacks.The nurses would give me food from time to time and when not I had to go buy something from the vending machine.It didn't work with money,it worked with pases that you get based on your behaviour.A weird system that would keep the peace.

That day I met Jade again and being the stubborn little brat she is of course she didn't let me mind my own business.Furthermore she picked up a tray o food for me which I was extremely thankful for.I loved mashed potatoes.I attempted to take the tray from her and leave when I almost dropped it.Luckily Jade caught it on time and she helped me carry it to my room.

Along the way a nurse stopped her and I may or may not overheard some of the conversation.The nurse warned her about me and told her that I had killed someone.I felt really scared,scared that Jade won't want to deal with me anymore.I wanted to tell her the truth but I couldn't.She didn't seem to be bothered by the news and I decided to put on a facade.

I started eating and Jade made up a stupid game,taking advantage of the fact that I wanted her to eat along with me.Actually,I noticed how skinny she was and assumed the reason why she was here or at least a side effect.She had to eat and the moment she refused to I knew I was right.I accepted to play as long as she ate so it was a win for both of us.She got new information from me and I had her eating a few spoons of mashed potatoes.If I have to play games like this every time to help Jade then be it.

This hospital is a nightmare and the more you stay in here the worse it gets and the more insane it drives you.It doesn't make you any better,in fact,most people that come in here leave more numb than when they arrive.It's almost like those crazy nurses brain wash them.After 4 years I probably got immune but in the beginning I was their puppet too.I don't want this for Jade,I want her to get better and leave this place as soon as possible.