Find my way back to you |calum hood|

T H I R T Y O N E

Ariana's pov

A couple of days passed, and tori had to leave my house because she actually had to attend work, my new manager, his name was David, was making me go to the studio today, so I had showered and made an effort to not look the way I felt.

I felt like shit.

I felt as though my whole world had come crashing down on me all at once.

Mark had left me.

The boys didn't text me really.

Calum cheated on me.

My parents don't even care about me anymore, they just care about how much money I make.

Tori has to work to make a living, like most people.

I basically have no one.

I was in my car on the way to the studio, listening to the radio and singing along to some songs that came on, tapping my fingers on the steering wheel until I was outside the studio I had worked at for the past year and a half of my life.

"Ariana you're five minutes late, his has got to stop" David said, "Yeah whatever" I said, I wasn't in the mood to start an argument or defend myself or compare him to mark, all I wanted to do was get this over with and go home.

"Look I know you're going through a tough time, I know about Calum and everything, I get it you're upset about it, I really do, but moping around wont help you, you have to get out there and show him what he's missing out on, I know you don't like me Ariana, but I'm your manager and I'm going to be for a while, and I know I'm not like mark or whatever his name was, I know I can't compare to the bond you two had, but I can try" he said as we sat down, "Im sorry" I said, "For what?" he asked, "I judged you and I hardly even knew you, okay lets get this done! I have to prove to Calum he means nothing to me" I said, taking deep breaths.

"That's a great song! Brilliant work Ariana" David said, "We'll get it edited tonight and recorded tomorrow" he added, "Okay, have you spoke to Philip about the VMA's? I know my song with 5 seconds of summer has been nominated, but do I have to go?" I asked, "Yeah I spoke to him, he says you have to go, also you have to preform with the boys, I'm sorry Ariana I did try and talk him out of it, but he wasn't giving up" David said, "Okay" I said signing, this means I had to work with Calum.

I don't think I could do this.

"We have to fly out to where the boys are to rehearse" David said, "When do we leave?" I asked, "Tomorrow evening, we'll be there for about a week, two weeks tops" he said, I nodded, "See you tomorrow" I said leaving and driving home.

I sat on my bed and cried, I just let my tears fall down my face.

I went to the bathroom and grabbed my razor, I hadn't done this since that tour with the boys, I hadn't even thought about doing it since then, I always had great reasons not to do it, but now I didn't.

I placed the blade on my wrist and pressed down, dragging it up my arm, creating fresh new scars with blood oozing out of them, I rinsed my wrist and the blade before going to my room and lying on my bed staring at the ceiling.

I picked up my phone, it was 2:10 am already, I dialled the only person I knew would answer at this time.

"Ariana what's wrong?" Marks concerned voice rung through the phone, "I can't do this anymore mark" I sobbed, "What? You can't do what?" he asked, sounding fully awake now, "Everything mark! I miss you, my mum and dad don't even care about me anymore, tori works a lot to keep herself alive basically, the boys don't speak to me, Calum cheated on me, David doesn't know anything, and you're not here, I have no one mark" I said, "Awh Ariana, I'm sure this will blow over, I bet it's just hormones and all that" he said, "Mark I cut about two hours ago" I admitted, "You what? Damn Ariana, it's been ages since you last did that" he said.

"I'm sorry, everything is just so much, I have to perform with the boys at the VMA's, I fly out tomorrow to spend two weeks with them! What am I supposed to do? I can't face Calum" I said, "I know, but you'll just have to, just show him you're not upset, show him he doesn't mean anything to you, show him what you're made of Ariana, show him what you can do, what he's lost, show him what isn't his anymore" he said, "This is why I love you" I said, "Get some sleep Ariana, text me tomorrow, and please don't cut again, for me" he pleaded, "I'll try, love you Marcus, you'll have to visit me soon" I said, "Night Ariana, love you! and I will see you at the VMA's" he said, "Night mark" I said hanging up and closing my eyes, eventually falling asleep with no one other than Calum on my mind.