lemon boy

kiss the boy

synopsis: high school au tj and cyrus are close and neither of them are brave enough to admit they like each other until one day cyrus kisses him out of no where

lyric: ❛ i've been afraid of my
place, of this way, of my feelings,
but i'm amazed at how we talk. it's
so chill, but there's tension. what's
the deal when your eyes locked on me
what's the deal when you smiled at me
like that. you see i try to be cool, but the
problem is . . . ❜
( practically the entire song )

          CYRUS GOODMAN and tj kippen we're sitting outside of school during lunch, buffy and andi we're running late. every time cyrus would look up tj looked as if he were looking around, cyrus wasn't oblivious, he knew that tj was staring at him. but he didn't know what to say, or how to stop the smile forming on his mouth.

"tj." tj looked up from table and met cyrus's gaze, "yeah?" his voice was low, almost as if he were nervous. if only he knew that cyrus was just as nervous.

"what're you thinking about?" he crossed his arms over the table, leaning forward. maybe just talking to him would ease the tension.

tj took his eyes of him and again, looked anywhere but him. "nothing important." but cyrus wasn't buying that.

"it doesn't have to be important to be talked about, teej. i'll listen." tj's eyes snapped up, meeting cyrus's again. shock was clearly written on his face, but cyrus wore a small smile.

tj's heart fluttered, wondering if this moment was even real. it was hard to believe a guy like cyrus even existed, he was just this perfect person. "promise not to freak out?" his voice staying at the same low tome from a few minutes ago.

his eyes softened as he watched tj get even more nervous than he was before, maybe he shouldn't have asked. "tj, i'm not gonna freak out. i promise." and the moment felt right, this moment felt exactly right.

"you." he said, and cyrus furrowed his eyebrows. "what?"

"you asked me what i was thinking about." cyrus couldn't get over how nervous he was acting, but once he realized what he meant he also realized why. tj was coming out to him.

he smiled, a huge, goofy grin.

and that's how tj knew his heart was his.

❛ don't wanna hide, don't wanna hide
most of my life, i've been terrified
spending my days questioning,
am i wrong to love a man? ❜

          CYRUS COULDN'T STOP the thoughts running through his head right now, had tj really just said that? "me?"

tj sheepishly smiled, and looked around for a minute. no one was paying them any attention but he felt as if everyone's eyes were on them. like they were silently judging them.

before he could even comprehend what was happening cyrus had planted his lips on his. it was soft, and slow, and to his surprise he found himself kissing back. he's never been this confident before, especially out in public.

his whole life, he knew he was different, he knew that he wasn't like everyone else. it scared him. this all scared him, his dad married a woman. his mother married a man. everyone in his family had married someone of the opposite sex, so was he wrong to love the same?

cyrus slowly pulled away, locking their eyes. "i think about you too."

no. something this amazing couldn't be wrong. it couldn't be, cyrus had to be what was right, he could feel it.

authors note !
idk how i feel about this one