Permission

Chapter 27

I went home that night and went straight to my room. I fucked up so badly. My phone buzzed and i picked it up. It was Noah saying hi. I was hoping it was Justin. I wanted to talk to him about everything. Instead I called Maddy and drove to her house.

Jax opened the door and scowled at me. "What the fuck are you wearing?" he said. I looked at what i was wearing. I had on a black crop top that was falling off my shoulder exposing my bare shoulder. I had ripped jeans and an old sweatshirt tied around my waist. I saw nothing wrong with it. I just threw on whatever i had.

"Could you like cover yourself up or something?" he said. He was staring at my collarbones. I held back a smirk. Jax was turned on. I found that hilarious.

"Nah. I like this. Can I get a hug? I feel like we haven't hung out in forever." he came in and i sighed. Little Jax was taller than me now. He gave amazing hugs though. I buried my face in his chest. He rubbed my back.

"You grew up so fast." I said. "You're already a freshman."

"I'm only 2 years younger than you." he complained. "I'm not that young. Plus i'm already taller than you."

"Damn right you are." I laughed into his chest and pulled away from him. I smiled and he did too. my hands were still thrown over his shoulders and his were on my waist.

Someone cleared their throat. It was Chris, Jax and Maddy's older brother who was a freshman in college.

"Oh hey Chris. Haven't seen you for a while. How's it been?" i said. Me and Jax separated.

"It's been pretty okay. Maddy is upstairs if you wanna go up there." he replied with a smile. He's always been one of my favorite people. I waved to them and ran up the stairs.

"Mia!" Maddy exclaimed. "Explain everything that happened right now with Justin!" We sat on the bed and i explained everything. I started about how his mom walked in on us in her kitchen and ended with how he was pissed because i said Noah's name instead of his.

"I couldn't help it. I don't know who I like more and it's killing me. Noah is sweet and caring and is so loving but Justin is so fun and i feel so free with him."

"I don't know how to help you there. They're both amazing.

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Maddy and I talked for a few more hours before I made it back to my house. I opened the door quietly and tiptoed in. My parents both had a 2 day business trip so it was my brother and I. or so I thought. Zach was sitting on the couch watching a show.

"What's up babygirl?" he smirked.

"Don't call me that." I replied with much less force than I normally did. He laughed and went back to his show. Mikey must've been sleeping already. I stormed up to my room and went to sleep.

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the next day was a blur. I spent the day ignoring Justin and Noah and pretty much everyone else. I was so embarrassed. At least Zach was throwing a party later. I'll get drunk and forget about everything.

I got home and put on a pair of black ripped jeans and a loose dark blue crop top. I threw on my black boots and went to find Mikey.

"YO DICKHEAD!" I shouted. "You're driving. Don't drink to much!" he said something but i didn't pay attention. We got there and I immediately went to find alcohol. I danced for a while before Connor dragged me to Zach's room for a game of truth or dare for inner circle only plus others. It was basically the group that slept over at my house plus a few more girls. It started heating up right away. Half the boys were shirtless. The bottle landed on me and I chose dare. Zach dared me to let someone take a body shot of me. I smiled and chose Connor. He pulled my shirt off and then took a shot of me and whooped.

I didn't feel the need to put my shirt back on. I felt Noah looking at me sometimes and Justin was forcing himself not to look at me. I missed him. I spun the bottle and it landed on Justin. He glared at me and I smiled.

"I dare you to kiss the hottest girl in the room." he scowled even more.

"What about the person I hate the least?" he asked.

"Hottest." I knew he was gonna kiss me. He came over and kissed me. I wrapped my arm around his neck and he grabbed my waist. Then I pulled away and sat back down completely leaving him hanging. He resumed his scowling and went back to his spot. He spun the bottle and it landed on me. Oh fuck. I chose truth.

"What's the most embarrassing thing you've done while having sex?" he said. Fuck. I new he was gonna pull some shit like this.

"I don't want to say it." I shot back.

"You have to. I want you to say it so everyone in this room knows." he said. People who were sober enough to function felt the tension between us.

I was gonna make something up fast. "My first time I uh...timed it wrong and got my period during it." I lied.

"LIES. You just made that up. That never happened." he shouted.

"So what if I did lie?"

"I'm gonna tell you all what happened. When we were having sex in MY car with MY cock in her while I was the one making her cum she shouted out someone else's name when I made her scream with pleasure." my brothers jaw dropped. that was probably more than he ever needed to hear about my love life.

"Justin I can't believe you! You're a dick." I said. There were a lot of murmurs and some giggles.

"You didn't call me a dick when you were sucking mine probably imagining it was someone else's. You didn't think I was a dick when I was kissing you in the backseat of your car. You didn't think-" he needed to stop. I was humiliated.

"Shut up!" I shouted.

"Why should I?" he said in a husky voice. I think he was getting aroused by the memory of us.

"Just shut up."

"Make me." he came over and kissed me. I kissed back. His bulge grew bigger and I felt a hardness against my leg. A lot of people were yelling at us to get back with the game.

After a few more rounds the bottle landed on me again. I chose dare.

"I dare you and Justin to get naked and make out for two minutes then not touch each other for the next 10 minutes." an unfamiliar person dared. Oh fuck.

"Alright i'm leaving." Mike quickly got up and left.  I went over to Justin and let him undress me. Then he undressed himself. After we were done making out I sat next to him. I could tell he wanted me. The game kept going but Jay suddenly said fuck it and lifted me up onto Zach's bed.

"Everyone should leave now." a few perverts try to stay back but their friends dragged them out.

"That was fuckinv torture," Justin whispered into my ear. "I want you right here, right now."

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i'm very well aware that it's a weird dare but ya know. When people are drunk they do weird shit. anyways this was more of a filler but i wanted to update before I got in the car for 2 hours to drive home. I wrote this last night at 4 am so pleass tell me if there are any mistakes.

do you celebrate christmas? if you do did you get anything good?