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Two months later....
Auggghh!
Omg! I am so tired of fucking puking! I want to kill that girl so bad. Yes I was clean until i found out was pregnant TODAY! But I've been sick for about two weeks. I'm thinking it is something I ate. That night of the party has me pissed. Yes I remember now it was cyn who I fucked because of her damn underwear and ain't nobody else around that I know of two dicks. Why the fuck do her freak of nature ass keep ruining my life? And I still do not know who tried to rape her.
I've noticed she has been moping around and her brothers don't mention her much when they are around. She ain't stuck with no baby though because I am the one who's carrying it. I can't kill cause it wont go unnoticed by my parents and it is not godly. Dear God my parents?!
They are already assholes and narrow minded, so how will they take me being fucking pregnant? God I screwed up so bad and cynthia's life is already hell. If push comes to shove, I might have to leave for the baby's, Cyn's, and my sake because we had sex but she either think I raped her or she raped me. I don't know and scared to find out honestly. I sit down and put my hand on my stomach and paused. After one tear dropped from my eyes, more came. I can never do anything right. This baby is a product of a mistake and can possibly go through what Cyn has been through.
"ERICA! Are you shitting in there or just looking at yourself in the mirror? You look good already. Come out so we can finish and cuddle" My annoying best friend/fake boyfriend says outside the door. I already know he is pouting. Fuck....I think I had sex with hi- naw that was a month before the party.
I laugh loud enough for him to hear me as I wash my hands and face. My face is so swollen and red but it doesn't look too bad. I brush my teeth as quickly as possible and open the door. He is pouting like I thought at the door.
"You know I've been feeling sick babe but lets go finish your movie. Maybe if I feel better, you will get a treat tonight" I said pulling him close and peck him on the lips.
He pulls me in closer and held my chin by his finger, " You have been crying and you need to tell me why."
I look at him and tried to laugh not so. "I just don't fe-
I sigh and shake his head as he look down but hasn't let me out of his grip. "Erica for once give me the truth without me having to break your walls down."
I step back as a tear roll down my face and look up at him as I slowly pull three pregnancy sticks out of my back pocket. He looks down at them and he is shocked as hand him all three.
Holding the sticks in his hand as if they are glass peices worth millions, "Ar...ho..but I pul...
He stops completely taking and backs himself in the wall and slides down to sit. More tears come and I can't control them. Now he is tears.
" I won't leave your side. Our babies will be fine and raised by bot-
" It's not yours." I said it in a whisper tone cause I am honestly scared shitless right now of his reaction.
"What did you say Erica? I didn't hear you. That mumbling shit does me no good if I can-
"IT'S NO- it isn't your baby Jordan" I respond back not daring to look up at him. The air suddenly feels like it is suffocating me. He stands up and still has the three pregnancy test in his hand. "I am the only dude you been fucking unless you lied to me Erica. Please tell me you didn't lie to me. I know we aren't together but DAMN!" Throwing the sticks on the floor causing me to flinch.
He is so angry and I don't like seeing him this way. I try to grab his arm but he gets out of my grip every attempt i make. Sobbing with tears down my face, " Please Jordan! I didn't lie. I went the party you hosted but was before I pulled up to the place and sh-
"Wait you fucked a female and got pregnant?! Is stupid on my fucking forehe-
" IT WAS CYN! It was Cyn and she was drunk, looked good, and she didn't belong in that crowd so I did not know why she was there. Somebody put a date rape pill in her drink or something because she said someone tried to rape her and I couldn't find her oldest brother and leave her alone. We went in the attic and alot happened. Even her saying yes, I think I basically raped her. I just couldn't let her fuck a random. I am so sorry Jordan. Please do not leave me. I do not have anyone." On my knees bawling my eyes out.
I felt his arms around me and he held my tightly as I sob into his shirt. "I raped my childs father, made her suffer cause she made me suffer when she didn't know. I am a coward Jordan. I am a horrible person and now i am pregnant" Holding on tight to him as he rubs my back.
"Shh sweetie...I won't leave you baby girl. I hate it got this far for you to see how people feel when you do shit to people. You don't deserve this but now you have to think about your next step. You got to tell he-
Pulling away from him as I shaking my head no nervously, " No I don't and I won't. This is my mistake. This baby is already practically born out of rape for my own personal satisfaction. I should have just took her home. I did not mean for any of this to happen."
He looks down at me with his soft eyes and had a tear rolling down his face as well. "You have to or I will because if I am going to be apart of this kid life and yours, my heart tells me that I cant let you or your child suffer without the fatherish in its life. The ball is in your court and I'm not rushing you to tell her once you figure out your decision but don't hurt her because you think you know what is best for the child and yourself. At least you got the best of both worlds because she loves you. I truly have no one and just want you to have something that I know that can be possible rather it not happen at all." With that said, he kisses my forehead and walk into the room.
What do I do?
To be continued..
What will she do?
What is going on with cyn?
Will Erica keep the baby and hide it or kill it?
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