Cyn's Point of View
How can I be so stupid?! Like why is she all the way out here anyways? I know her boyfriend wouldn't let her travel this far alone. As soon as I hit the woods, I went off the trail just in case she followed me. I stall for about twenty minutes before heading home and cleaning myself up. The diner never get new customers, so why she had to stop by?
The last time I saw her, I was in between her legs and I wasn't in my right state of mind. I took advantage of her and I am a horrible human being for that. The love I feel her has been betrayed cause of my actions. I left to get away from the chaos and here I am losing my mind.
There is millions of questions right now only she ca-
"Cyn?"
My whole body stopped as if I am paralyzed from head to toe. Sky rockets are shooting every where in my brain. Am I even breathing right now? Did it get hot as well in here?
"Cyn are you okay?"
She doesn't move as I shook my head no. I feel like I can't breath and someone is choking me. There are tingles in my hands and never been this terrified before in my life.
"Do you need to sit down?"
I should be the one asking her that. Wow she is big. No words yet come out my mouth. She steps in and stops by the door.
What do she want from me?
Is she gonna report me? How did she find me?
My body softens as I see her about to cry. Erica doesn't cry nor would she let people see it. Especially people like me. She must have a valid reason to be here. Jordan should not let her come out this far alone and she is pregnant with his baby.
I sigh," Why are you here and why are you crying? Do you know how dangerous it is to be alone out here? I got lucky to be out here alone Erica."
She says nothing and continues to cry. I wrap my arms around her and start to tear up too because she shouldn't be crying. She is too beautiful to be crying unless its tears of joy and seeing me is not joyful. Maybe it is baby hormones.
"Why did you leave me? Why did you leave us?! I remember cyn..every bit of that night and you just left me!" She says sobbing in my arms. "I prayed and hoped you weren't dead and they kept saying you were probably dead cyn", looking up at me. "I am sorry if you felt as if I raped you. Please forgive me and come home Cyn. There is so many things you have missed and it is all my fault. I drove you away and I am so sorrryy." Continuing to sob into my arms.
I look at her astonished and held her tighter against me. There is so many questions right now but I did not mean to hurt her. I thought being away would help because no one cared if I was there or not if it wasnt for breakfast or dinner.
"Erica I need you to look up at me and tell me what you are talking about? No one cared if I was there when I was so what could I have missed. I remember that night and you did not rape me but who did I leave besides my family and why are you here? I thought you didn't care if I was gone."I said. She pulls herself out of my arms and look down at feet before looking at me with her sad red eyes.
"Cyn I was a coward and in reality wanted you but our town would not accept that and my parents would leave me homeless financially. I need the money and house more than ever now cause I am having a baby now. I wanted to scream at you when I saw you but you look so scared and terrified as me." She says taking a deep breath from crying. " When you left cyn, the town fell apart and your family is going through so much knowing their baby girl is out here alone or dead. They knew I was looking for you. I have been for months but Cynthia....That night...that night changed me forever. Jordan is out of the closet. He was my pretend boyfriend for years and only slept together if we were both desperate and lonely. I am a slut because people think I've done everyone and everyone has done me but that's not true. I had three people in total including you. This baby is not Jorda-
"Then who the fuck is he and why the fuck would he let you be out here by your damn self?! You are too young, fine, beautiful, and preg-
" CYN YOU ARE THE FATHER!...I am looking right at the person, who gave me this human inside of me." She starts sobbing as she walks towards me. "Cy-
"NO!" I yell backing away from here. "I can't give you kids. Hell I can't get you pregnant because of my chromosomes. Why are you still trying to playing games with me?! Is having a steady person in your life that can suck up to you that important? You need to leav-
She drops to her knees as tears run down her face. " Cyn I promise it is your baby and I meant every word I said that night. This baby is your baby because of the timing. Jordan and I didn't have sex around the day of the party. It was a month before. I made him believe it was his by accident at first but I came clean. Don't leave please. I have nobody Cyn. I am nothing but a slut regardless of the money. I am so sorry", breaking down into tears completely on the floor on her knees.
I look down at her and squat down to her level as my voice cracks with tears running down my cheeks. "Why must I believe you and not think this is a pathetic joke?"
She looks up at me and look into my eyes, "Because the love I couldn't give you properly, this child with your DNA will give you apart of me and the love you always wanted. It's not about me. I just want this child to be given something not everyone has and that is a great parent who will give them the world. That's why you must believe me. I don't know how to be a mother but our child will always have you. Forget about me. I don't deserve you but this child deserves someone like you." She says placing her hand over her stomach.
I look down at stomach and became a complete cry baby. So I really did just leave the mother of my child behind. I am such a horrible person. This is not how I wanted to bring my child into this world. Kids weren't even on my mind. Erica's life is ruined and it Is all my fault. How am I still selfish when I try to be selfless?
Sobbing into her lap, "I am so sorry..I am so sorry Erica. I didn't mean tooo."
I say that over and over again as we cry together and she rubs my back to sooth me. It didn't honestly help. The feeling made me feel worse. She needed me and I wasn't there for her or our baby.
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We sat there for a while and just held each other. No words were spoken and no movement made no sound. Just the two of us and silence. She puts my hand on her belly and leans on my shoulder. I bit my lips slightly as my nerves starts to take over me. This is something to process. I have a baby on the way and no where near prepared to be a parent. I don't want to fail this child like I failed people myself. Right now Erica and the baby's health is important. She cant be out here in this environment.
"Erica?"
"Hmm?" Slowing starting to fall asleep.
"I need to get you home so you be a warm bed and ea-
"My house is cold, that town is cold. Right now you are the only thing that has kept me warm. Money doesn't grant you warmth emotionally just physically. I already ate and you made me comfortable. I know we need to talk but I just want to sleep while this moment last." She sighs.
"Okay baby girl. Get some rest and we will talk tomorrow." I said after I kissed her forehead and lay her on me.
I watch her eyes close and her breathing evens out.
"Tomorrow is gonna be a long day and God please be on my side."
To be continued...
What is gonna happen now?
Will Cyn ask for DNA?
Will Cyn go back home and stay where she is at?
Will they keep or give away the baby?
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