My two and only

21. Only if he was here

' Teddy, Matty, please stop crying, I'm so sorry,' I comforted my brothers. They wouldn't stop crying since they woke up from their naps.

' Lili...' Teddy said as he cried.

No, he's not coming back anymore. I pushed him out.

'He won't come back, Teddy, I'm sorry,' I kept apologising.

'Lili...' Now even Matty was saying his name.

'Stop saying his name!' I shouted.

They both stopped crying, 4 big eyes staring at me with fear.

Oh no. I scared them.

'I'm so sorry, boys,' I reached out to carry them, but both of them turned away.

Oh shit, they're scared of me.

'Hey, sweetie pie, it's ok,' Flynn came back just in time.

'Let's go take a bath, ok?' He escorted the boys to the bathroom, he winked at me, 'it's gonna be fine.'

I said,' thanks.'

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'Hey Mariposa, how was the test?' Aby asked me.

' It was really bad.'

'Come on, you're Mariposa! Our top in the whole year! How could you find the test bad?' Fi joined in.

' I... have insomnia these days,' I replied, yawning afterwards.

' Aww girl, take care,' the guy who attempted to steal my notebook appeared out of nowhere.

It was Liam who helped me got my book back.

' Do I even know you?' I asked him.

' The name is Andrew Stone.'

'Whatever,' I started walking to my next lecture.

He stopped in front of me to stop me, 'what do you want, Andrew?' I asked him.

' I know you and Liam Scott broke up,' I stopped walking and glared at him.

He took a small step back but kept his obnoxious smirk, I said, 'so?'

' So, I'm here to ask you out.'

'What? Are you kidding me?'

'Nope, I want you to be my girlfriend.'

What did he meant by he wants to? Do I look like the person to comply?

'Piss off,' I stepped on his feet.

'Owww!' I could hear him scream as I'm walking home.

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'Come on, Matty, eat something, won't you?'

I've been trying to feed him some purée, but he just wouldn't eat.

I remembered that time when Liam taught me how to make purée for the boys which they finished in less than ten minutes.

I sighed, and turned to Flynn and Luther, 'guys, help me.'

Luther said, 'sorry can't help, got my thesis to write.'

Flynn then said, 'sorry can't help, got my assignment from last year to finish!'

I shook my head at Flynn, and continued feeding my brothers.

Only if Liam was here.

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Fuck, I missed Liam.

Even though I'm always with my brothers, I still felt lonely.

I wondered if breaking up with him because of something his family did was a wrong decision.

But I just couldn't bear the thought of going out with the son of my father's murderer.

But they didn't kill him, your dad killed himself.

I sighed, I didn't want to think about him anymore.

'Ouch!'

'What happened Mariposa?' My classmates asked.

'I cut my finger with the scalpel.'

'Get her wound cleaned up,' the professor said.

I forgot that I was in anatomy class and more importantly, doing a dissection.

Well done, Williams. Daydreaming about an ex while dissecting, that's gonna get you far.

' Margot, seriously you have to be more careful when you're holding knives.'

'The question is, why the hell are you cleaning up my cut?' Andrew Stone was kneeling in front of me now.

And he still didn't know my real name.

'Haha, cause that's what boys do for their crushes.'

'Um, maybe you can sit when your helping me, rather than kneeling?' I said.

He grinned, 'aww, thanks Posy.'

'Don't call me that.'

Flynn was the only person on Earth that could call me that.

'So what were you thinking about just now?' Andrew asked me.

' None of your business.'

'Don't be so mean to me, Margot.'

' Ugh, can you just stop annoying me?'

'You wouldn't push me away so heartlessly, would you?'

Only if Liam was here.