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For how many years that I know you, sent you flowers everyday, watch you from a far, taking pictures of you secretly and protecting you. I have did those things without you knowing who really am. I don't know what I feel towards you but one thing I know is that I care for you more than my life. Until one day, I slipped away.

"Hey, be careful will you?" I said after I catch you from falling in the ground accidentally.

You're trying to reach a big snack while you can't even reach it.

"Uhm, thank you. Hindi ko kasi abot eh" you said those using foreign language.

"Pardon, please. I am sorry I cant understand you"

"Oh, I said that I can't reach it. Perks of being small" you laugh then

"Yeah, you're small and cute." I said jokingly, cute, her face redened after I said those words

"Mr. dont insult me! Cute is use for puppies!" You exclaimed.

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That was our first met in three years that I watched you from a far, I decided to stay near with you and be your friend. We became bestfriends and you even taught me your language, Filipino, though I sucks saying some words I still manage to understand. We are happy staying in bestfriend zone and I am contented about it but not until one day...

"B-Battle, may sasabihin sana ako." She said shyly.

"What is it, Placid?" I ask her innocently

"I have thought for this how many times and I know now. I am in love with you, Battle." Matapang na sabi niya. Hindi ako nakaimik agad dahil sa gulat.

"Don't you love me too, Battle? Akala ko parehas lang tayo ng nararamdaman because the way you treat me, I felt so special and loved." She continue.

"Placid, hindi kita mahal. Sorry." Fvck. Yun na lang ang nasabi ko sakanya.

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Pagkatapos kong magtapat sakanya, naging mailap na si Battle. One-sided love sucks, sana hindi na lang ako umamin at naging kontento sa friendship namin. I never thought na wala pala siyang nararamdaman sakin kasi naman, he really cared for me at kung ituring niya ako parang mahal na mahal niya. Hindi niya naman ako masisi kasi umasa ako eh the way he treated me, it is different from the friendship we had. But ngayon walang ng natira sakin, he avoided me and nawala sa isang iglap ang bestfriend ko.

Days, weeks and months had passed and still no Battle. Hindi na siya nagpapakita at nagpaparamdam sakin pero may isang tao naman na nagparamdam ulit sakin, he used to send me flowers three years ago at bumalik ulit yung nagbibigay ng bulaklak ngunit hindi ko man lang siya kilala. Naputol lang naman ang pagbigay niya noong mamgkakilala kami ni Battle pero ngayong iniwan na ako nito, nagpatuloy ulit yung estranghero na nagbibigay ng kung ano-ano.

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I never showed myself to Placid again, hindi ko alam kung bakit pero natatakot ako na mahalin niya ako kaya nilayuan ko siya at naging kontento na pagmasdan siya sa malayo. Mas mabuting ganito na lang kami, walang gulo na mangyayari at mas magiging ligtas siya. Bakit pa kasi ako nagpakita at nakipagkaibigan sa kanya.

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Hindi ko na kaya to, kahit man lang sana friendship namin ni Battle ang matira sa amin. Im used to be with him at komportable na ako sa kanya.