About Her

15: Trauma

I often feel
that I
will die soon,
that one day
what happened to her
will happen
to me

that second
of her final gasp
kept on haunting me
every
now
and
then

and death—
I've never
been scared of death
because
I
practice death
as I sleep

However
I fear
losing my breath
I fear
grasping one's wrist
while witnessing
the river
that flows
in the eyes of my worlds

I fear pain
before
eternal death
itself

I fear
pain
in general