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New Years kiss - Namjoon

2 days before New Year's Eve

"Hey, come one. It'll be fun." The taller male insisted on going to the New Years party happening in a few days. You were hesitant, not liking the idea of spending the new year with so many strangers. But Namjoon knew how to persuade, he knew you would come around and say yes.

"Namjoon, I don't know. I've never been to a party on New Years.." you look down at your hands, he grabs one of them. "Which is why you should go this year. Try something new." You looked up at him, he had an expectant expression and you just couldn't say no.

"Fine, but, let's not stay too late." He nodded smiling and wrapped his arms around you. You smiled, enjoying his warmth. But the idea of the party never left your mind.

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New Year's Eve: 11:35

I was getting ready, adding final touches to my make up and clothes. Namjoon in the other hand, was more than finished, he never liked to go over the top with his clothing. He waited for me in the living room of my small apartment, playing some game on his phone, I think.

I put on the necklace he gifted me for our three year anniversary as the final touch, then, grabbed the small hand bag that was on the bed and walked out. As soon as I did, Namjoon's eyes landed on me and his mouth dropped. The taller male walks over and extends his hand. I giggle and take it. He pulls me into a hug an we walk out.

Once outside of the apartment, he opens the car door in the passenger seat and I get inside. He walks to the driver side and does the same. He searches for the keys and I examine him carefully nibbling at the inside of my cheek. One question present all the time while looking at him flooded my mind: why was he so persistent in going to this New Years party?

"Found them" he holds up his keys. "Namjoon." I say looking down at my hands, I don't know what to say next.

"Yes, y/n?" He places the keys in the ignition and the car turns on. "Why do you- why do you want to go? Couldn't we just have stayed home?" I look up at him expectantly, waiting to know.

"What do you mean, why? We never go out together and whenever we make plans you cancel at the last minute." He sighed. "If you don't want to go, you don't have to go." Annoyance was evident in his tone.

"No. I'll go, I just... I don't know." He lets out a long sigh and starts driving I just kept looking down at your hands, I could hear him mumbling something I just couldn't understand. Not long after, the car came to a stop and Namjoon got off, slamming the car door as he does. I follow him inside.

New Year's Eve 11:48

I instantly regret coming here, there was people everywhere, I'm not so fond of crowds and crowded places. Namjoon went straight towards a group of people, finding a specific girl and greeting her. I think she was the host, but the way he looked at her. His eyes glistening when she looked into his eyes, there was a smile in his features, a very genuine and gentle smile. One he had never given to me.

Calm down, you're probably overthinking. I thought, but soon was brought back to when both, Namjoon and the girl made their way to me. I'm not going to lie. I've had a bad feeling about this, now it's become even worse. "Hey y/n, I want you to meet someone." Namjoon said and they walked over.

"I- uh- hi" I waved and smiled. She showed me a forced smile, I could feel she didn't like me. Just by the way she looked at me, she seemed fine on the outside, but there was hate in her eyes. "I'm Eun-ah. Who are you?" Namjoon never told her about me? "I'm y/n, Namjoon's girlfriend." A devious smile appeared on her face. "Well, I'll be leaving to greet other guests, I hope you enjoy the party." She shook my hand and hugged Namjoon, of course he hugged back.

"I'm going to get a drink, are you coming? Or do you want to stay to talk to your friend a little more?" I put an emphasis in friend. I started walking away trying to not break right there and then.

New Year's Eve 11:54

I've lost track of time. I don't remember when was the last time I saw Namjoon, the only thing I remember was him and I getting in an argument, I don't remember exactly why. I stood from the couch and walked to the kitchen to get another drink, when I felt a hand on my arm.

"There you are. How many drinks have you had?" Namjoon. "Namjoon, I don't know, maybe 15?" I hiccuped "anyways, why do you care? Weren't you hanging out with ms. Eun?" A scowl appeared on Namjoon's face. "Why are you acting like this? She's a very close friend of mine!" Now it was my turn to scowl. "If you care so much for her, let go of me. I'm leaving." I struggled from his grip and freed my self, just to be held by the waist.

"No, please. I'm sorry, don't leave." He said before helping sit on the nearest couch. "I'll be you a glass of water, I'll be right back." And with that he left.

New Year's Eve 11:55

Five minutes until midnight. Namjoon was in the kitchen grabbing y/n a glass of water, he was also clutching the small velvet box that was inside the pocket of his pants. Tonight was the night he'd ask y/n to marry him, they've been together for three years and he wanted a life with her. Sure, they had their disagreements and argued, but that's just life. He loved her.

As he was walking out of the kitchen, a small figure appeared in front of him.

"Namjoon~" the figure clung to him, he knew right always who this was.

"Eun-ah, I need to get to y/n." He tried to free himself, but she just cling to him more. This girl had a great strength for such a small figure.

"No." She said bluntly. "Be my New Years kiss." Namjoon almost dropped the glass he was holding. He checked the watch in his left hand, it read 11:58. He needed to get to y/n before 12.

"I- I'm sorry, Eun I just don't love you that way. We've been friends for so long I want to keep it that way. Please let me go I have to get to y/n." His heart was beating uncontrollably, she just wouldn't let him go.

"What does she have that I don't?" She sniffs tears wetting Namjoon's shirt. "I've been there for you through thin and thick, and you still can't see that I love you?" More tears stain her cheeks, everyone around them starts counting down. He started to panic.

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Namjoon hadn't come, and it's almost 12. What if something happened to him? I betters go see. I made my way through the crowds of people counting down for the new year. 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2. I was just in time to see Namjoon and Eun-ah kissing. At that exact moment I could every muscle in my body going limp. Everyone started screaming indicating that it was 12, Namjoon lifted his face his eyes met mine.

Tears built in my eyes and threatened to fall. I turned and ran before the tears fell, ran as fast as my short legs would allow. I ran to a street and broke down, my legs shook uncontrollably, I let my legs give out.

That's when I heard a car honking.

That's when I saw lights.

And that's when I no longer was able to feel, or hear, or see anything.

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A/N:

This is the end my fellow readers 😔.

The end of 2018 :D
This years been fun, and I'm vv thankful that there's people out there who read this crap book :,) I mean, 13k freaking reads?! And the very first story has 2.05k reads. ilygvm ❤️.

Has anyone seen bird box?? I thought it was a really good movie. Ngl.