BTS angsts

Regret - Jungkook

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I've always been bothered or made fun of because of my looks. I've never been the most beautiful person, but I have my own charms. It doesn't bother me in any way, I've always been most focused on my education. And I don't really need friends, I've got the best one in the world. Jeon Jungkook, we've been friends since middle school. The only problem, I started to develop feelings for him about two years ago.

Jungkook and I, we're polar opposites, he's loud and very social. Me in the other hand, prefers to stay at home where it's quiet. I'm not really sure why, but there's something about him that I just love so much. His presence brings happiness to me. I just wished we would speak more now, just like we used to. But, the "popular" kids at school decided that him and I would no longer be friends.

At least that's what they think they did. Him and I still talk when we're out of school. And, the fact that we're neighbors doesn't help the situation. My feelings for him have just become deeper, to the point I actually hurt when he's with his "friends".

I thought him and I were close, I wanted to tell him how I felt. So, one day after school I made up my mind and decided to tell him. I texted him to meet me outside.

"Y/n." I looked over and saw Jungkook. He was wearing sweatpants with a big hoodie. "Did you want to talk about something?" I nodded and patted the spot next to me on the steps of my house. He sat and

"I've had something on my mind for the longest time, I think it's time that I tell you." I took a deep breath. I was growing nervous, my fingers began fidgeting and I spoke.

"You know how we've been friends for a really, really long time?" He nodded and I continued. "Well, sometimes people develop feelings for each other." He nodded "what are you on about?" "What I'm saying is. I developed feelings for you a long time ago, and this is my way of saying that I like you." My voice just kept getting quieter and quieter.

He looked taken aback. He was thinking for a while. His face softened, and he wrapped his arm around me. Then, he spoke softly. "Y/n, I love you." My heart skipped a beat, but before I could say anything he bang speaking again. "And I've always loved you, just not the same way. You're amazing, but my heart already belongs to someone else. I hope you can understand."

I could feel my heart shattering when he said he already loved someone. I looked down and stood, he looked at me confused. I looked at his eyes with my crying ones and spoke.

"I understand, and I'm sorry I bothered you. I think it's better if we just cut ties with each other. I can't keep hurting like this." I went inside, leaving Jungkook sitting alone on my porch.

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"One iced coffee please." "Okay, and will that be all?" The guy at the cashier asked, I nodded. Then I waited for my coffee so I could leave to school.

When I got to school, I went straight to my classroom, I didn't want to walk past Jungkook and his group of "friends" just to be made fun of again. I stayed inside most of the time. When the first bell rang, everyone started heading to their classrooms.

"Y/n y/l/n, please report to the main office." I heard my name through the speaker, no, everyone heard my name through the speaker. I stood up and walked out of the classroom, everyone stared at me as I passed. I was too distracted that I didn't notice Jungkook and his friends standing near the office.

"Hey y/n, got in trouble? What'd you do? Didn't sharpen your pencil enough?" Said one of his friends. He just stood there, not doing anything. I stood there too. I stumbled back when I felt the stinging pain on my cheek. The girl slapped me. They all laughed, even Jungkook.

I don't know why I got called into the office. When I arrived at the office, I saw a guy around my age standing there. His face turned my way when I walked inside. I thought he would turn away right after, but he just kept staring.

"Is there something on my face?" I asked, looking at him. I was worried he might see a red mark. He seemed taken aback when I said that. He scratched the back of his neck. "No. I'm sorry I was staring." He said with a smile, I returned one. "Well, that's the trend around here. Are you new? I don't think I've seen you before."

His face brightens up and he nods. He gives me his hand to shake. "My name's Jimin, Park Jimin." I took his hand. "The name's y/n." "Okay Jimin, here's your schedule... oh, I see you've met y/n. She'll give you a tour around school. She's a sweetheart." The lady from the office said, I just smiled.

"She is indeed." He said with a big eye smile, there was a rush of heat making it's way to my cheeks. "Thank you." I whispered.

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I learned a lot about Jimin while I was giving him a tour. Him and I actually have a lot in common, we like the same music, the same shows and even the same foods. We share the same favorite color. It's like meeting myself in male version, the only difference is our appearances. He's handsome, I'm not. We also have a lot of classes together.

We became friends really quick. One day we would talk about the new episode of a show and the next we would be sharing music for our playlists. I never thought I'd have another friendship like the one I had with Jungkook.

Jungkook p.o.v

I've seen y/n and that new guy Jimin around. He makes her laugh a lot, they seem to be very close. It makes me wonder how long they've known each other for. I know I have no right being jealous because I rejected y/n, but I can't help it. Seeing her with someone else, made me regret my decision. I want us to be friends again and I'll make her mine.

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Y/n p.o.v

One afternoon I was sitting on the sidewalk with Jimin. I invited him over to my house because we had a project to work on. I wasn't wearing my usual school attire. I had my hair down, and I was wearing a plain black t-shirt with shorts.

"Y/n." He said looking at the sky. "Yeah?" He lowered his face to meet my eyes. "You're an amazing person, you know that? You helped me become more comfortable at school." I smiled and nodded. He continued "These past weeks have been amazing-." Jimin was interrupted by the sound of a door. We saw Jungkook walking outside.

For a second we made eye contact and there was a hint of pain in his eyes.

"Jimin, do you want to go back inside to work on our project?" I asked, looking away from Jungkook so Jimin wouldn't suspect anything. "Uh, yeah sure." He said, we both stood up and went inside.

5 months Time skip/Jungkook p.o.v

We're finally back at school for our last year in high school, I heard that y/n and Jimin were finally a couple and that y/n had a "glow up". I was nervous to walk inside and see them together. And that was the first thing I saw, y/n who used to be my best friend, with Jimin her new boyfriend. I regret everything, I regret not saying sorry that day they hit her. I regret not making her mine.

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It's an update!! This chapter wouldn't have been possible with out the recommendation of  @bangbangtan2506 thank you! I hope you enjoyed it. How was everyone's day? I hope it was good. WAIT I JUST REMEMBERED HAVE YOU GUYS WATCHED BOY WITH LUV?!?!?! IT'S GOOODDDD!!!

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