Warmth Lies Within | MiChaeng

Be My Friend

Here I am standing outside with this tray in my hand. What am I even waiting for? I took a deep breath... It sounds stupid to say that I don't like to act in a caring way. I just can't stand to see myself like that in front of people in general. It's been part of my personality all along.

I walked in and closed the door as a habit. Slowly, I reached her side and placed the tray on the desk beside the bed. She still wearing the same confused face as before, you just can't seem to tell what exactly she's trying to pull out of her mind. "Ms. Kyungwan, you need some sugar so that you could gain more strength." She looked my way without blinking, and then she tried to sit properly obeying what been said to her.

Midway, I caught her losing balance again to drop on the bed, but my fast reflex caught her on time by shoulders with both of my hands catching her in each side. With her head trapped in between my grip, I noticed that her hand were clinging to my shirt as well. I took my hands off trying to back off gently, but her hands are not leaving its grip on my cloth. My eyes landed on her while she was looking straight ahead as if she looking way beyond my body. And there I saw those shiny color circulating her vision. Frustration starts taking over as I don't know what's happening neither what to do in this situation.

My hands move on its own to pat on her back carefully, thinking that maybe it will ease her heart a little. But what happened next took me out of guard. Without warning, those tears start flowing and her hands moved to secure me between her. Just like that, she poured her heart out while squeezing me closer. I continued patting her back at the same pace assuring her that she's safe.

After about ten minutes, she calmed down. I thought it was the time to free my body from her embrace, but it doesn't seem that she wants to let go. "Can we stay like this a little longer?" She asked suddenly and I wasn't ready for such a request.

This moment that we just shared together, didn't only serve her, but me as well. I noticed how much she carry the same sent like my friend. Being this much close weakens my body and senses, but it hurts a lot as well. It brings me pain more than anything.

"Why would you ask for that?" She shifted her head that was facing my right side to be direct with my shirt, burying her face in softly. I was fine with everything until she throws her next words at me. "I like your smell," what in the world is she saying? Like who would say such thing in their right mind. I want to escape from her, but at the same time, I don't want to be harsh. "You do realize that what you said is a little embarrassing, right?" And thank god, my words were able to make her lose her grip on me, setting me free.

I backed off slowly sitting on my bed facing her. "I won't ask what's the deal with you as it's none of my business. But instead, I would appreciate it if you could eat what I brought you with me before you get to prison my body between your hands." Her cheeks went shade red giving me a small nod. As soon as her eyes landed on the tray, I saw it beam happily.

She started digging the jelly, I could see that she's enjoying it. "Those are my favorite snacks ever," she stated full of joy. Well, I won't be surprised anymore, Nayeon used to love Jelly as well. And not only that, I would always make sure to buy Vita500 for her. It's what I always end up buying, a habit to remind me of her.

I was sitting down and my eyes were fixed on her while she enjoys the munching. Didn't pay attention until I found that she's staring back at me with a knowing look. "Why you dropped your smile? Even though it was sad, you looked more approachable."

"Are you scared of me?" She was surprised by my question but she shook her head fast denying. "I am not, it's just that... I liked it..." I hummed in acknowledgment while nodding. "Just get used to me having those swings in my face. I used to carry more playful soul than now, it just I don't find reasons for it to come back to that phase of me. Now lay back down until you gain your strength steadily again." I went up from my place to grab the tray. "It's not the first time something like this happened to me. Not eating, could be one reason but the main one is that me putting pressure on my head. Every time I try to remember something my head starts hurting and I lose my balance. My family always tells me to not push myself to remember but I do want." She was talking to me freely about her life, I don't want to sound rude but those things shouldn't be shared with anyone.