Warmth Lies Within | MiChaeng

Be My Girlfriend

On my chair I stand alone

Decided to live a life by my own

Left the place I used to call it home

And I will wait till you call me from that phone

As an Unknown you will be shown

To put me down, away from that misery throne

                                                            by Park Jisoo

[Sana]

"Hey, Dad, why you still up?" I was taking my shoes off, my dad is still up, sitting alone in the living room. Taking a look at the TV while I make my way toward him, it's not on at all. I take it that he's over thinking again. "Dad!!?" I called again as he didn't seem to hear me the first time. "Oh hi sweetie," finally he realized my arrival and responded with a weak smile averting his eyes somewhere again. Honestly, that's what kills me the most, seeing them in pain and not being able to make it any better.

While offering the biggest smile I could manage I gave him a small kiss on the cheek and settled beside him in the couch. I made sure to cuddle him, demanding to take all his attention. Moving his once static hands filling it with my presence. He looked at me with his tired eyes, "how is mom doing?" He moved his right hand to pat my head, "You know how she could get. Though I know under her smiles, the tiredness is hidden, but we will work through it. Don't worry about us little kid. Just make sure that you continue your studies and never give up. Your mom and I wish for you the best outcome could be and we would do anything to ensure a better future for you." He gave a kiss on my forehead while I close my eyes with his attempt. "Now go to your room and take some rest." I nodded with my head and went up grabbing his hand with me, "you need to rest too, dad." So I start jumping up and down while his right hand is swinging with me. "Okay okay, I am going," and just like that, we went together each one to their respective room.

I made sure to go take a shower to relax my body and change to something more comfortable to sleep with. Laying down on the bed and facing the empty ceiling, I find it hard most of the time to drift away to dreams land. Always thinking about what happened and happening at the moment, forgetting to give my brain a break to rest a little. How did all that result in such state for us, everything used to be much easier to deal with before? Well because there was nothing to deal with in the first place when we had the money to meet our needs.

Back in the days, when I was still in Japan with my best friend Momo, we used to hang out almost every day. I would go to her house and sometime she would come to mine for a sleepover. We were inseparable and shared a special bond with each other. Since I never interfered with my family business, I never knew much details other than me visiting my parents when I felt like it. Apparently, there was a new business partner for us and my dad was giving too much trust to the guy. And it went like that until my dad somehow ends up signing papers that ended up in losing our deals. And with the amount of debt that we had because of the guy that ran away, we had to do something regarding the shareholders and the company. We spend all the money we had to try and close the debt but it was huge and everyone ends up leaving us alone in the field to fight. That's what I understood at the time.

Off course Hirai family tried to help us but my dad was determined to find a solution. So instead, he took loans to solve the issue from a connection that leads to Korea. And before we knew it, we were out of the company issue and drawn in another one that's much more complicated. The Hirai knew something went wrong but before they could do anything further for us, we were out of the country.