SPRINGDAY

Prologue

Y.N'S start…

When I was told Nayeon committed suicide I was shocked. I felt numb. I didn't cry or feel sad. I just tried to make sense of what I just heard. It didn't feel real. It must be a dream or a misunderstanding. So I laughed.

Y.N: what? That can't be true, she's the happiest person I know. She always was happy and making others happy. It can't be real, right? TELL ME YOUR LYING!!! PLEASE TELL ME THIS IS A DREAM!!! PLEASE!!!

I begged my parents, who were crying, to tell me it wasn't real. It didn't happen. It was the wrong person and it wasn't Nayeon my sister who I loved so much. Suddenly realisation can over me. They wouldn't be crying if it wasn't true. It must be true then. I started to cry and cry harder then I have done ever in my life. I ran up to my parents and hugged them tightly as we cried together.

As we hugged, my thoughts started to wander into the topic of why she did it. I really wish I didn't because it just made me feel worse than I already did from the news.

She just faked her happiness for others. She never actually cared for herself. She didn't even ask for help when she needed it the most. But I still feel like it was my fault for not noticing it. Maybe if I wasn't so selfish I would of known and helped her, but I was always way to focused on myself.

I'm so sorry big sis, I love you so much. I hope you can forgive me for my selfishness when you needed my love and support that I didn't give to you.

YOONGI'S start…

All I wanted to do was make music but my parents wouldn't let me. I had a piano but they broke it. I then brought a keyboard but they broke that as well. They did everything to keep music out of my life.

All they wanted was a son that would become a doctor but I didn't want that. I wasn't interested in jobs like that. They forced me to take extra tutoring classes but I soon started to skip them and waited at a park until the lessons would be over, then I walked home. After years of being verbally abused for the job I wanted, I ran away as far as I could possibly go. Before leaving I pack all my things and wrote a note to my family.

Dear mum and dad,
I'm running away from you. I want to be a musician but you won't let me. So I'm running away to do what I want. Sorry I just can't do it anymore. I hope you understand and don't look for me...

Love from Yoongi xxx

I moved to live with one of my old friends. I told him I'm coming and would be staying until I could afford an apartment for myself. I asked him to apply for a job for me, it's only part-time but that's all I can do. I also applied for a high school there. I hope it has a music room.