*This chapter will be very very sad so please don't read it if you don't want to...
Warning : depression; self harm; rape; suicide..
If you are uncomfortable reading about it, then plz dont..
I wrote this when i was feeling very down so if there is any mistake then i am sorry *
"Alright Y/n, so we will see eachother next week", your therapist said as you forced a smile at her and walked out of the clinic.
You saw Nancy sitting outside patiently and giving you an encouraging smile. You smiled at her back and nodded signalling that all went well.
Nancy was your co-worker and also a mother figure to you. She was the one who was so supportive and caring towards you when you moved to this city three months ago.
It was hard for you to cope up with the changes in your life and it was nancy who insisted you to see a therapist.
She was a kind lady who gave you hope that the world isn't that unkind after all.
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You were getting late for work as you tried to walk as fast as possible. You wiped away the tears which unintentionally kept straining your face. You widened your eyes to stop the tears from coming as you dragged your feet to work.
You worked at a small restaurant and coffee shop. You pinched the bridge of your nose as you tried to clear your head and straightened your uniform when you bumped into someone. Your head was still down as you slightly raised your hand and mumbled 'sorry' without even looking at the person. You hurriedly walked past the person, when you felt your arm being pulled behind, stopping you in your tracks and forcefully turning your body back.
Your eyes widened in shock as you looked up to see him. You sure knew that he will find you somehow even though, you were running away from him but you didn't think it would be that early.
"Loki.." you whispered almost inaudibly, your eyes still widened as you looked at him.
"Yeah, remember me?"
Pain and disgust was evident in his voice which he hid with his smirk.
You looked at him longingly, but your expressions changed to annoyance
"Go away!"
You said angrily and walked away..
Loki grabbed your hand and pulled you back
"I don't remember following anyone's orders"
You violently shoved his hand away and shouted
"WHAT DO YOU WANT??"
"Answers..."
Loki said calmly, looking into your eyes.
You rolled your eyes and sighed..
"Dont you understand when I said leave me alone.. I don't want to be with you.. I do not love you anymore and there is nothing between us now.. "
He grabbed you by your shoulders..
"Why?... Why?.. Because you found someone else?", he chuckled mockingly...
"Don't give me that bullshit, Y/n.. You cannot lie to me"
"You want to know the truth, huh?"
You smiled at him coldly and said,
"Because you are a lie, you are not even a true Prince..you are just an over sensitive piece of shit who blames others for their own problems..You call yourself a God? You are not even a king... You only know how to manipulate others for your own use.. Any girl with a sane mind would rather be with Thor than be with you "
You finished with a cold smirk as you saw tears forming in his eyes, he looked taken aback by your sudden burst and looked at you with confusion on his features.
"Then.. then.. why were you with me all this time?", he asked, tears streaming down his eyes as he carefully looked in your eyes as if searching for the real 'you' or someone you used to be...
"To have fun!", you shrugged carelessly
"Actually I wanted to be with Thor but then he had Jane... So... I had no choice"
You gave him a cold glare, turned around and left, leaving Loki looking at your back.
His gaze was unfocused. He looked shocked, utterly shocked by your changed attitude and behaviour. Was THIS the real you? Was he mistaken all along? Were you really just using him? Fooling around with his true feelings for you? Making a mockery of his vulnerability?
He clutched at his chest as if trying hard to supress the raw pain he felt inside. He was betrayed.. betrayed again.. by the one he loved and cared about.. by the one he 'thought' was of his own and truly cared for him...
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