"I'm really glad we're friends again"
Ryans eyes met mine as the corners of his mouth tugged into a smile. "I am too, I really missed you."
"So what do you want to do?"
"We should play call of duty so I can kick your ass."
"Oh, you're freaking on!"
I set up the game and Ryan did kick my butt all right. I lost so bad it wasn't even funny.
"So I heard from someone that you have a girlfriend, what's she like?" He asked not removing his eyes from the screen.
I haven't even thought about Sarah since this whole situation started. "Had, she broke up with me about a month and a half ago because she was moving. She was great though I really did thought I loved her."
"Oh im sorry that sucks."
"It's okay im not really that upset about it anymore."
He nodded and continued the game. I guess he was tired because about 29 minutes later his head was rested on my shoulder and he was out. I set my controller down and started playing with his soft curly brown hair mindlessly. My stomach churned a little and I felt something that didn't seem to exist before I remet him. I tried really hard to shake that feeling but it seemed to grow larger before I was in full panic mode. I didn't even realize that Ryans arms had wrapped around me, or the concerned look in his eye or the fact that his hand was on my face wiping away my tears. I got more of a clear look at his black eye which made me cry more.
"Hey, you're okay it's okay, what happened?"
"I honestly don't know," I started feeling stupid. "I just panicked for no reason."
He nodded in an understanding manner, "Yeah I do that a lot." He smiled a bit. It was his turn to start messing with my hair and that did calm me down a bit but also made me anxious at the same time.
Before I got a chance to say anything else, there was a knock on the door. Ryan and I both detangled ourselves from each other almost out of instinct.
"It's just me, " Ashley called out.
My heart started beating again, "Okay come in."
"Um before I do you have to promise me you won't be mad."
"Just come in here."
She walked in with half shaved- short blue hair. "Hayley did it for me, I think moms going to kill me."
"She better not, that looks amazing!" I smiled.
"Really?"
I nodded, "How about the three of us go to get food? Sound good?"
"Im down," Ryan claimed and Ashley was already halfway down that stairs.
We both exchanged looks before going downstairs and into my car.
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40 bucks in we decided that going home was a good idea. Ashley hung out with us in the living room for a little while before deciding she had better things to do.
Ryan and I went back upstairs and he laid down on the floor. "Can I say something that is sad and stupid."
I sat next to him, "Go ahead"
"Im really tired....but im scared to go to sleep. I feel like something is going to change if I wake up. I can't describe it, im just scared all the time and I hate it." His eyes were red from wanting to cry and wanting to sleep at the same time.
"It's not stupid, is there a main reason why you're scared?"
The way his body shuddered when I asked that made it clear that he didn't want to talk about it.
"It's okay, we can talk about something else."
He nodded and sat up his eyes darting to mine before shutting down completely. "I'm sorry....im not much fun."
"You are amazing to be around and you can't convince me otherwise."
His lips tugged into a small smile. "I don't know how I even survived without you." He admitted honestly.
"Im glad you did or this wouldn't be happening."
His body slumped against me and without even thinking I wrapped my arms around him again. This time I didn't feel anxious anymore.
His breaths slowed and soon I realized he was asleep. I didn't move or even breath, I just held him as close as I could.
