𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐦𝐲 𝐭𝐲𝐩𝐞 .

열 셋.

the next few days, nothing changed. i've never talked to jungkook anymore since that day. well, it's just two or three days ago, but honestly, it felt so long. like, a year or something? i know i'm exaggerating the issue, but i couldn't help it. i couldn't control myself from missing every single thing about him. every time i passed by yugyeom's desk, i'll hear his laugh. and i missed that.

i sighed, those thoughts really dragged me down. again. for the hundredth times. and it's driving me crazy, i know. words can't describe how much i want to see that smile of his again. but i guess this is it. the end of our relationship. i never knew why he was acting like that at the first place, smh. if i could just—

"did you hear me?" the snapping fingers in front of my eyes made those thoughts disappeared. blinking my eyes a few times, i tried to remember what i was doing before they came into my mind. oh right, taehyung was talking to me before. my gaze went to him, who was apparently furrowing his brows at me in anger. he took a sip from the cola can then put it back down on the table.

"you didn't, don't ya?" slowly, i shook my head. the disappointment was displayed on his face as soon as he saw my action. escaping a sigh from his mouth, his face leaned closer towards mine. there was a smirk plastered on his lips, before asking, "i asked you, do you want to go out this weekend?"

my forehead creased at him. "are you actually asking me on a date, kim taehyung?" i backed off, realizing that our faces were only a few centimetres away from each other. for goodness' sake, it was suffocating me enough. he soon busted out a few chuckles, which left me even more confused. he put a hand on my head, looking deep into my eyes. that made me shuddered a bit.

"i don't know, kim dahyun. i just wanted to spend time with my best friend, can't i?" his words made me puffed my cheeks at him, hand pushing away his hand from my head.  he just grinned, knowing that i  wasn't actually sulking at all. "you know that look isn't cute anymore when you do it for like, thousands of times now, right?"

i soon shifted my seat, straightening my back. i shrugged at his question, thinking about it for a few seconds again. i mean, spending quality time with your friend wouldn't hurt, right? right. it's been a long time since we've gone out together, just the two of us. i've probably spent less time with taehyung since the whole crush thing on jungkook started.

"yeah, sure. let's hang out at the arcade, alright?" i balled my hand into a fist, and soon, we both bumped our fists with each other. i saw him smiling widely, and that softens my heart a bit. i smiled back, enjoying the happiness displayed on his face. because both of us know, that kim taehyung, really have a soft spot in my heart. no matter what.

•••

after spending a few hours in the arcade, we eventually got tired. taehyung surprisingly won a huge teddy bear from the claw machine but gave me instead, saying that he doesn't have any reason to keep it himself. we now were walking down the neighbourhood, all the way to my house.

my eyes soon caught something, that made my steps stopped. right in front of the coffee shop, i saw him. i left my mouth hanging open, eyes glued on his movements and actions. the smile that i've been longing to watch nowadays, he showed it to a girl that he doesn't even know personally instead. taehyung noticed where my gaze laid on, and that made his tracks stopped too.

my heart aches. so much, i thought that wound inside me will never be cured. i wonder how much he has hurt my feelings before, but it doesn't matter anymore. nothing even matters anymore, because jungkook seems to have been fonding with his blind date a lot by now. that smile of his was sincere, i know it from the first glance.

his eyes, his sparkling eyes somehow caught mine. realizing it was me, jungkook widened his eyes but covered it back with a plastic grin. he shifted his seat, wanting to avoid my stare. there was displeasure conveyed on his face, even though it wasn't that clear. and that shattered my heart even more by now.

slowly, the ice cream in hand slipped down. and without i noticed, it fell down on the ground. the cream splattered all around, including on my leg, that made my gaze went down. i sighed, looking at how much of a mess i did. if only i didn't meet them.

I bent down, trying to wipe off the ice cream stain on my leg when suddenly taehyung stopped me. he then took out a handkerchief from his pocket and squatted in front of me. he wiped that stain from my leg. gently, softly. he soon stood up, after cleaning it. there was a smile plastered on his lips. an assuring smile, assuring that he'll always be there for me.

"let's go home, okay?" his manly hand took mine with care, with gentle. now turning my gaze towards him, i nodded. but that doesn't stop my heart from hurting. bad thoughts kept playing in my mind, and it's driving me crazy. what if that's the end for us?  what if he sees me as a friend only? what if we never talk anymore?

and it broke my heart. really hard. soon, i felt something wet dropping on my cheek. it wasn't a raindrop, i know. it's coming from my eyes. tears streamed down on my cheeks, and goddamnit, it won't stop now. my shoulders already went up and down, my sobs were getting louder as we walk.

taehyung know that i'm crying by now. but he doesn't want to disturb me, because he knows how much i wanted a personal space. so he held my hand even tighter, gripping it like there's no tomorrow. and that calmed me down. because being in his arms always calms me down. on a rainy day. on a moody day. on any day.

because that's what best friend for.